Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
I am speaking on behalf of Karachites: “Please Allah, I love you and I love rain but please make it stop. I am okay with a bit of drizzle here and there, dark skies and cold breeze but this city does not have the capacity to endure your divine love, we just can’t handle it.”
After a tornado of
chaos, emotional roller coaster rides, Covid 19, isolation, social distancing,
masks, sanitizers, pain of losing a beloved family member suddenly and the
craziest social media- I have been trying to find my centre the inner place
where I can go and dream of anything. Immense struggle of no avail.
2020 has been a very
difficult year probably the most challenging one of my life. For the last 9-10
years I have been meditating, praying diligently and life has been pretty good
to me however the emotional and financial crisis of the world jolted the best
of the spiritual practises. I really believe that corona virus was a three-second
trailer of the judgement day. Now on 27th August 2020 when I am
writing this post, it is really astonishing to realize that I have actually
made it, I am alive and okay.
I am blessed and
lucky beyond imagination and God has always been kind to me. Yes, I know it’s a
very big statement and many of us would never be able to call ourselves lucky
or blessed but you know what, we should do declare our Good Luck more often. Complaining,
finding faults in the system or in the family or with the work is the easiest
thing to do and always proclaiming how unfortunate we are, we make sure to
remain stuck in the bad situation The observer effect in quantum physics states
that the mere observation of a phenomenon inevitably changes that phenomenon. Besides,
there is no system no workplace nor any human being in the world who can make us
happy- what is important to shift our focus from being a sufferer to a
solution-finder.
Of course,
easier said than done. Every day, every moment it is a conscious choice that we
all need to make and it’s not easy, but it is much better than whining or
complaining for the situations that are beyond our control. The only thing that
I can control is myself and my mind.
Many sun shines..…
Sonya Syed (Post 585)
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