Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
It is a sad moment for me, all is
well with family and my health though. Yet I truly feel sad, sad at how
complicated simple things can get, sad at how mistrust can shake the walls of
your being. People cannot be blamed for their opinions or unwarranted fears, but
unfortunately the truth stands there at a distance quietly watching the
swiftness with which fears are sinking people in the vast of ocean of mistrust.
Have you seen in movies where an innocent
person picks up a wounded stranger lying on streets and rushes him to hospital,
however, on reaching hospital the police arrests that innocent person on the
suspicion of wounding the stranger.
That is why when an accident
happens on road nobody picks up the wounded person because everybody fears that
they will be charged for helping someone. I guess, these are the times of insensitivity
and of strictly minding your business, and let everyone be on their own.
At some point we need to realize that no one can help anybody - until and unless God intends to help someone.We all are mere channels through which He works and without His will nothing happens.
The good part is that God is the Healer of Healers
so when He is there to take care of His people - then who are we to worry.
Everyone is born with their personalized
syllabus to survive in this world and sometimes the best help is not to help at
all, just trust the magnificence of life that all the rights things will happen at their own pace
and in their own ways with highest good of all involved.
All we have to do is to be honest
and sincere in our intentions and in our deeds, pray and leave the rest to the
Omnipresent, the most Magnificent God.
Wow, just writing these lines
down makes it so better. I feel so blessed, so fortunate to be in the presence of
all you who have always supported and encouraged me. I am sorry to have been blabbering
like this but then you all are well aware of my habits.
New academic sessions are
starting for colleges and universities, so guys I wish you all the best and
pray that new semesters get lighter and brighter for all.
By the way new book by Marianne Williamson
‘A year of Miracles’ is published, I have yet to buy my copy but if you get it
first then do read it and share your views on the blog or on emails with me. Although I am still living in the magic of The Magic, and I pray that I never ever come out of its spell.
May we all be blessed with faith,
love, peace and joy.
Good Night!
Sonya Syed. (Day 467)
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