Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
There are so many colours of life that truly enrich our souls
and minds. Most brilliant colours are the shades of our loved ones, and of the
people who have been with us through thick and thin.
Yes probably I am in the mood of philosophy because that is
my shade for today.
Recently, I have met people who are the ardent readers of our
blog, who ponder on every word that I write and give it value and respect.
This is a pure blessing that we are living in times where
connectivity has become so easy, there are many platforms available to millions
of people around the world through which people can express themselves both literarily
and creatively.
So thank you all for your appreciation and support, and being patient with me for
my abrupt disappearance from blog.
I tried my best to come on the blog earlier and share a bit
of what is happening; however, every time I tried to write something it
either didn’t make sense to me or I didn’t feel connected, so I just took a
break.
I believe that one should only speak if there is something worthwhile
to say, otherwise it is better, to hold your peace.
So much has changed since the last time I wrote, yes I know I
always say that but this time it really has.
Many times we just wander
aimlessly around the loose ends of our lives, trying our best to find purpose
and peace, and possibly some answers. Answers that would lead us to nirvana,
but then the more answers you get, many new questions arise.
So why don’t we just skip the question-answer session and
enjoy our lives without being a detective.
I heard someone saying that you don’t have to know everything, there is
a mysterious beauty in not knowing.
Nevertheless, human mind is a curious place especially if it
is the mind of a lawyer. I dig and dig until I find what I am looking for, and
you know I am successful in most of the cases.
And then, you reach a point where success or failure does not
mean anything, a point where you do not want answers anymore because what you
are desperately trying to find outside, is already within you.
All our answers
are not out there floating in Pacific Ocean or hidden under Himalayas but they are
with us.
All we need is simply to take a take breath and look....
Have a wonderful evening!
Sonya Syed. (Day 468)
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