Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Goodness! It feels like ages have
passed since I last wrote, almost a month has elapsed and there has been no
news from my front. What am I up to these days, any new happenings?
Well, thankfully there is not
much excitement in my life, it is amazingly dull and boring and trust me you
would want it to be like that.
I don’t have any idea as to why
there has been such a long gap after my last post; I wanted to write, to shout
out loud yet I choose to be quiet. Sometimes silence is the best medicine, it
is wise to hold yourself rather than make a fool of oneself.
Talking about fooling oneself, over
the time I have realized that it is one of the greatest therapies available to
any human. It is so wonderful to keep yourself in a dream-world, where all is
bliss and perfect and where everyone is beautiful. Nevertheless, the Reality does pull you out of your
comfort zone and you are left with no option but to face what it is.
Anger, hatred and jealousy are inevitable
human emotions and no matter how much we deny we all have a certain standard
amount of all these within. What is important here is, whether we deal with
them with grace and dignity or we choose to express them in the harshest of
ways imaginable.
These days none of us want to
work on our own weaknesses or try to improve what we lack because there are so
many short-cuts available to us. Let someone else do the hard work, we can just
relax and go on creating problems not only for us but also for others.
In our daily encounters with
people our own insecurities, complexes and hidden fears get reflected back to
us. This concept is mostly proved in our
closest relationships, what we see in others is somewhat our own reflection and
the other person is only being our mirror image.
This is a hard concept to swallow
but if we accept this fact, our lives can become really easy.
Need to do the necessary…will get
back to you soon.
Many prayers,
Sonya Syed. (Day 478)
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