Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
I wonder if this ever happened
to you, that you are searching for your wallet or an important paper in your
room but was unable to find it. Then you call your Mom “Ma, did you see my
wallet I can’t find it in my room”.
Mom tells you to look carefully
because she has kept that article in its place, nevertheless, after your
recurring failure to find your desired object your Mom finally enters the room,
go straight to the drawer and within blink of an eye finds your wallet.
And of course, while handing over
your wallet she is going to give you a solid piece of her mind simultaneously
pointing out your complete inability to ever find anything
If you observe closely you
would notice that this is so true for everything in life. You see, most of the
time the things/answers/ solutions we are desperately searching for are mostly
right in front of our eyes; but we are unable to see them.
Same problems keep on showing up
repeatedly, disturbing emotions continue to rise, and you become eager to solve
situations or ignore the emotions but all in vain.
Why? Because although we are looking,
yet we are not really seeing.
Have a wonderful evening!
Sonya Syed. (Day 490)
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