Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
I was thinking for a
long time to share my favourite verses from different Surahs of the Holy Quran,
and what is the best time than Ramadan. The verse I quoted above is from Surah
Talaq, and has always shown me light whenever it was the darkest.
There have been many
times in my life especially academic moments, when I was going through my making
or breaking moments, when I lost my courage to move on and then there came the Divine help for me, and I received whatever
I desired.
When I changed my
school after completing 8th grade I took admission in another good
school but unfortunately it had bad management. So within couple of months I
decided to shift to another one, however, it was extremely difficult to change
schools so rapidly when the board examination forms for grade 9 were submitted
by all the schools.
We took a big risk and
my mom and I were very terrified that I might lose one year. Afraid but fixed to
our faith, we went to St. Patrick’s school and talked to the principal, Ms. Amy
Gonzales to take me. Although it was way late for admission but Ms. Amy gave me
a chance. She said if I cleared her tests then she might think about it; and
voila I cleared and got my admission.
Same thing happened
when I was in a desperate search for a senior lawyer with whom I can work and
learn. After many efforts, and days and nights of crying there were no fruitful
results. Many lawyers rejected me because I was a female and it was too much responsibility
for them, the ones who allowed me to intern with them didn’t provide enough
ground to learn.
Once again down and
desperate, Dean of my law university stepped in to help. We were sitting in
High Court, and it was Thursday I think, the lawyer we were waiting for didn’t show
up but another senior high-profile lawyer entered the courtroom. He didn’t talk
to me but inquired from my Principal, as to what am I doing with him. My
principal told him my sad story. Within the blink of an eye this senior lawyer
said, ‘I will hire her, if she wants to join my firm’.
Did I want to join his
firm? Hoooo Of course Sir I am too ready to work with your law firm. It was Thursday
and from Monday I was working with a big name. There I learned and grew and
evolved and made mistakes but I learned it all.
When I completed my
litigation training I was thinking about what new avenues I could explore. And then
one fine day in the extreme heat of October, I was running from one court room
to another to follow the cases, carrying 20 files, reading and rehearsing my
tribunal and district court cases- out of nowhere I received another
life-changing offer by another senior corporate lawyer- who refused me earlier,
not one but two times.
These and many other
moments when I thought I had lost it, I was shown the Divine mercy.
It is a common belief
that if we can get connected to the highest authority in power or in any organization,
we can make it to the top. So I always follow this advice and get connected
with the Highest Authority who has unimaginable power and authority, in fact He
is the owner of everything and everyone in this world, universe, and all the
galaxies.
However, in order to
connect with Him you have to challenge yourself, push yourself to the edge,
leave your comfort zones, be honest and truthful and follow your dreams.
Have a great week!
Sonya Syed. (Day 534)
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