Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Getting
back to life and some kind of normalcy, it has been crazy few months. It feels
really nice to be back to the point where I have started this wonderful journey
for all of us to be connected and share, to vent out.
Teaching is one of the
best thing that could happen to anyone, it changes you for good. In my class
when I bombarding my students with last moment tests and course extensions, one
of my students said ‘you are like our Mom, and Moms don’t give children tight
study schedules’.
It
is funny how I suddenly became what I am today, yes like a mom of more than 80
children. And then came the finals, long grueling hours of checking every paper
carefully so no injustice is done. It is really a proud moment that all my
students worked hard and got wonderful results especially when I pushed them over
the edge.
Ramadan
came and now they are leaving us, it has been an overwhelming month with Amjad
Sabri’s sudden death. It was in 2005 when I went to Sonu Nigam’s concert in
Karachi, and for the first time I heard Amjad Sabri’s qawali. Honestly all these years later I am still enthralled by the quality
of his song and voice.
It
is a sad event, but Karachi has been bruising like this for decades now. We believe
that we have developed some sort of immunity but I don’t think so. We are all
receiving the same bruises, and sharing the same emotional agony, whether we are
related to each other or not.
However,
we also have to realize that this world after all is our temporary abode and each one of us has to depart on our own scheduled timing. So we need to make it really awesome
while we are still here, not only for ourselves but for others as well.
These
few months I have experienced some extraordinary moments, starting with my friend
whom I know for ages, Sadia Saleem, she has guided and supported me to take some
wild decisions. Then came Sana Khan who pushed me to think the unthinkable and
make my dreams come true.
Things
were really haphazard at my end and I was in a total chaos but today it is settled and I am less hyper.
I pray to Allah that He bless all of us with His Divine light, safety, healthy, peace and of course, wealth. Amen!
Love ya all...
Sonya Syed. (Day 557)
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