Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Even though if one doesn’t belong
to any particular religious sect but it is in the days of Moharram, the first month of new
Islamic year, there is a certain melancholy in the air. We collectively
experience this sorrow in the form of frustration or boredom, irritation or
even lethargy without apparent reasons.
The tragedy of the Great
Sacrifice made by the Grand Children of Prophet Muhammad (May Peace Be Upon Them) and their Companions shall always remain
with all of us till eternity. The guilt however is that we as Muslims have
failed miserably to uphold the dignity of those Great Sacrifices which were
done for us.
From tomorrow starts the new week
with the routine hustle bustle and for me it would have few new activities; this
has been a long weekend of holidays with hardly any outdoor activity. I was
eager to do something creative with the evening time and now I have an idea as
to what I shall be doing.
Lately mind has become devoid of
any thoughts, which is actually a good sign. In fact this empty or silent mind
is what I have been working to achieve for years and now when I have a glimpse
of silence in the mind my entire system is trying to adjust with these new
changes.
I know you might be expecting something
fresh from me after a gap but truly I am empty of any thought processes.
Probably because I was fasting today or may be because I have ten things on my
mind which I need to be doing in the coming week; however, before taking any
step I have to take some advice. For this advice I need to be making few calls,
the calls which should have been made today but purely due to my laziness they
are postponed.
So do pardon me for my empty mind
but I promise to be in a better state the next time I would write.
Good Evening!
Sonya. (Day 250)
Comments
In this situation, there is only thing to make planning for coming week.....:(
I really could't yet figure out exactly whether there should be long week-ends or not.........