Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Bored from
resting, bored by doing nothing. Sometimes even to write few paragraphs
become a challenge, like it is happening these days. I sit to write but there
is nothing to say; I think and rethink, stare the computer screen, get up and
start to walk around the room yet still everything remains blank. I wonder what
could be the reason for such blockage have I changed or is there nothing to
talk about.
When I began
blogging back in 2009 I was going through a lot emotionally, in fact I was
over-whelmed by my thoughts and feelings then. I couldn’t sit with my Mom or
friends and repeat my wanderings and then there was also some new stuff to be
expressed but nobody had either time or energy to listen to my chatter, hence
this blog was born.
Since then quite
a lot has changed and for the better only. I went through my career ups and
downs, lot of shaking up emotionally and then finally road to life cleared. Now
in 2012 have I said it all? I don’t think so…. As long as we live our stories
shall continue there might be intervals but definitely no stopping.
Talking of
intervals new Spider Man movie is in town and the younger lot at home is
desperate to get tickets but due to heavy advance bookings they are unable to
get there hands on the 3D version. I am personally not a fan of Spider Man
series however it’s a fun way to pass time with the family. Lets see if I can
convince myself to watch the movie.
Ramazans are on
there way and if we get the monsoons in time and long enough then it might
prove to be a double treat. This year fasting could last for more than 14 hours
but if the weather is windy and rainy then it shall become thoroughly
enjoyable, however, I am not sure as to what would be the state of roads and
traffic.
Lets keep our fingers crossed, hope for the best and the best shall appear.... Insha Allah!
With affections
……
Sonya. (Day 326)
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