Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
These
days in Pakistan we are bombarded with news, on one side there is a huge debate
about the Judicial Commission that has been created to analyze the elections
rigging of 2013; on the other end there is a run for election of a particular
seat in Karachi and then there is the unfortunate Yemen- Saudia war. Honestly,
the last subject is far more painful to witness.
Today
Muslims are one of the most humiliated population in the world. Our greed,
moral and financial corruption has reached new heights, it has expanded so much
that we have conveniently accepted it as the norm of life.
Probably
that is the reason that no amount of money suffice our needs today, we are
always struggling for more and when we achieve more- we again start the process
of acquiring more and more. Time has lost its vastness, years have become
months, months have changed into days and days have turned into minutes.
I
mean just take a good look at our lives, our finances, our relationships- they
all stink. Nobody is ever happy or content with anything; everyone is
complaining about something or someone. These days we are mostly miserable-
fighting, accusing and blaming somebody else for all the problems in our lives.
Never wanting to really look at our own behavior, because, it is easy to accuse
others and not correcting ourselves.
In
this worldwide race of wealth and power, we have lost understanding of
good and bad; of right and wrong. Corruption, lying and cheating are the most
in-things and if someone does not have these traits they are considered idiots.
Of
course we pray regularly like robots and talk about the wrath of God but we
hardly take God seriously. These days God is merely a concept, sitting up there
somewhere in the skies and have nothing to do with our lives.
All
this is not happening automatically, there is a reason behind everything- that is, the cause
and effect. Whatever is manifesting is the direct result of what we are giving individually
to this world. We are the cause, each one of us independently, contributing
every single second with our thoughts, feelings, actions and deeds.
What
is the solution, then? Honestly, I don't know but I think it is better to focus
on the good that is remaining in our lives. To really commit to truth and
personal integrity. To focus on the positive side of people and
situations. Try to live simply without the compulsive need to impress and out
perform others.
Last
but not least, become highly alert that God is not merely a concept sitting far
away- rather acknowledge His presence in every moment; to realize that He is
listening and watching each one of us, quietly recording with His high-tech
cameras our every secret thought and action, gauging our level of faith;
and when our time shall come He would show us all our recordings on a huge 3D
screen along with His personal feedback.
Have
a safe and wonderful weekend…
Sonya
Syed. (Day 528)
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