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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Thin, thin where have you been?

Finally after not trying really really hard and leaving everything as it is I am slowly coming out of my strange zone that I was living in for last few days.  I have just ordered my new keyboard that would be arriving within couple of hours. There is a nice computer shop near my home, they are doing a great service to humanity by delivering accessories at your doorstep. It’s not anything fancy, just a simple keyboard because the one I am currently using has lost its control, yup the control key is not working anymore, @ and “’’ have also exchanged their places. It is such a relief of not bothering yourself or anyone else to buy anything, a phone call and life’s problem get solved instantly. It is also true that in this fast paced world I am still stuck upon my good old fashioned PC and do not prefer to work on the laptop. First of all I really don’t understand why on earth we call it laptop; it hardly ever sits properly on the top of our laps. At work la...

Midnight snack

Even with the best of my efforts I am unable to sleep, thoughts are rolling in mind- few with reason while others repetitive and useless. So I decided to fully acknowledge my insomnia, and what is a better realization then to give your scattered thoughts a platform to be expressed effectively then to write this post and ventilate what is hidden. For some time I have been thinking about unconditional love, love that does not need anything in return but only giving to other(s). This kind of love has been encouraged by many spiritual teachers and believed that this is the only way to protect us from living a sad and miserable life. Nevertheless, when you meet the real people in the real world and the way they push your buttons then the only thing you want to do is to teach them a lesson for good- give them a taste of their own medicine. My friend and I were talking about the same thing and she said that unconditional love and peace are merely the concept of west becaus...

Wake up call!

Many prayers for the peace, comfort and security for the residents of Peshawar city who faced heavy storms; many who passed away, many who are safe and alive, who have lost their loved ones or homes, or both.   The same prayers are for all the victims of Nepal earthquake- may God show His mercy. For Muslims it is best to pray 2 rakah Salaah for all those who died and for the safety of all of us.  And for everyone, Muslims or non-Muslims for two minutes close your eyes and visualize pure white light being poured on the victims and affected people of both Peshawar and Nepal. Hold onto that image until you feel comfortable, and repeat it as often as possible.  This is the most powerful peace and healing visualization that actually brings a positive shift in the situation. It can be done on anyone and anything that you want to heal and bring peace to. It could your next business meeting, exams or studies, your home, your children, your city or your cou...

Working vs. Non-working

I don’t know why but whenever these two words are mentioned together they mostly refer to women: working women/ non-working women. Unlike 30- 40 years ago today women have choices to study, to work, to get married, to be married and working, to be married and not working. In western cultures women are free to select their lifestyles; yet in majority of cases they have to work and earn a living whether married or single. Financial independence of women in West is both a necessity and a social trait. However, when we come to the Eastern part of the world things are different, although in urban life women are encouraged to study and have a career, if they want. Nevertheless, a man is still considered the main bread earner and all financial responsibility of raising children and taking care of his family belongs to him. Many of ladies are going to question me for what I am saying now, but in all honesty I feel that the entire financial responsibility of taking care of fa...