Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
The heat continues unabated. But within the discomfort and the sweltering conditions we see flowers blossoming to their fullest only in the hottest months of the year; nature in its finest expression and so justifiable. Bright, beautiful and soothing to the eyes. Nature’s inherent element of balance, the element of poetic justice, of good and evil intertwined.*
A laburnum or Amaltas and Gulmohar in full bloom and in huge large bunches all around our beautiful city Karachi.
I was born and brought up in Karachi but all these years I never noticed that the entire city is inundated with trees and flowers. Probably that’s what happens when we remain engrossed in our thoughts, we see but we don’t actually look; we hear but don’t really listen. In the foreground we are interacting with someone or busy doing something but in the background, in our minds, we are always thinking mostly the same, scrapped thoughts repeating over and over again. In case of any unpleasant incident then thinking is further reenergized by the movie-making of all the negative events and running that reel repetitively. Ah the agony of human race the dukkha or suffering caused mainly by ourselves.
So Peace be upon us. In what we say, what we do, what we believe and what we think.
May Laburnums to bloom into your lives, with affection and love -
Sonya. (Day 68)
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