Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Sometimes waiting seems to be the
best option because there is no other option. I have tried many times to say
something but all in vain, words have seemed to left me. For once in my life, I
am speechless. I feel that whatever I am writing or trying to write is boring, well
actually I am boring myself. I need something fresh or someone new to inspire
me.
It is so true that in our daily
life we meet people who inspires us, give us new idea, some food for thought. They
could be anybody, they could be someone we know or don’t know. Sometimes even
meeting people briefly in life can be truly inspirational.
To ease some of my boredom I have
bought myself an Agatha Christie's novel ‘At
Bertram’s Hotel’, she was the phenomenal mystery writer of 20th
century. Her books have sold billions of copies in many languages since her first
novel in 1920’s. I love all her books, and I love the suspense she creates.
Most of the books have purely British
background with fancy homes, loyal butlers, traditional decor and yes sudden
murders. When you read her novels you just feel that you belong to the classic British
era.
I have to admit that my mind at times work like her famous detectives
Hercule Poirot and Miss Marple.
Just like these fictional
detectives whenever I am at a cafe or restaurant or any other social gatherings
I study people, it is my favourite hobby. I get curious as to who they are or what
might be their stories.
If you pay attention you might learn
a lot just by simple observation. A word of caution, never make anybody
uncomfortable by observing them, never look at anybody directly because that
would disturb them.
I am sorry but I cannot help it,
it comes to me very naturally. It might surprise you that such detective like curiosity
and observation has been truly helpful in legal work. An inquisitive mind is a perfect
landscape for being a good lawyer.
Mostly people have misperception regarding
the traits of lawyer; they believe that for being a good lawyer one should be
highly argumentative and have debater-like qualities. I have to disagree,
because for a good lawyer one has to be confident with a highly creative and a
very curious mind. Debating ability or arguing habits alone are not enough.
There have been moments when I
felt bad for not being able to work in the Scotland Yard or for not practicing
as a criminal lawyer, because that’s what I actually wanted to do. When I started
my practice I was determined to work on the criminal law but my seniors and
family strictly banned that area for me.
Thus I became a corporate lawyer;
however, I have absolutely no regrets for working on the civil side because what
I gained on this side is fabulous. Working as a corporate lawyer, not only expanded
my knowledge, but I also managed to do some amazing work. Along with all this, it
also made possible for me to meet wonderful people.
When I look at the big picture I have
to say that all these elements together have made my journey a blessed
experience.
Have a fabulous weekend!
Take care of yourself and your
loved ones.
Sonya Syed (Day 443)
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