Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Before beginning we all must say prayers for dissipating of the natural disaster in Hunza valley and that all settles with peace and betterment for everyone not only there but throughout our country.
I was watching a show hosted by our veteran actor Nadeem on PTV, his guest was Anwar Rafi a popular singer of 1990’s, he sung some really memorable songs. It is such a tragedy to witness great artists with huge potential and talent living in anonymity even with so much media development and channels’ coming in art is getting obscure rapidly.
It is unfortunate for us as a country to not have any film industry, with so talented many actors, technicians, musicians there is not a single platform to fully exploit their potential. Even under these grim circumstances there is a division within the show business and one group is based in Lahore and the other in Karachi, even our fashion industry after going through so many dilemmas has two separate fashion councils for Lahore & Karachi. Albeit there are very few people who could be counted on fingers working in show business and ironically they are divided. Art is said to be beyond boundaries and prejudices but with us it could only come in divisions and intolerance.
It is unfortunate for us as a country to not have any film industry, with so talented many actors, technicians, musicians there is not a single platform to fully exploit their potential. Even under these grim circumstances there is a division within the show business and one group is based in Lahore and the other in Karachi, even our fashion industry after going through so many dilemmas has two separate fashion councils for Lahore & Karachi. Albeit there are very few people who could be counted on fingers working in show business and ironically they are divided. Art is said to be beyond boundaries and prejudices but with us it could only come in divisions and intolerance.
Why is it so that we want to be always right and have strict adherence to our mental positions, why is it that we simply cannot tolerate someone else in our territory, why is it we cannot be patient and show tolerance and compassion when somebody censures us, why we just cannot forgive?
So many of our lives complication resolve if we just could be humble, compassionate, ignore and forgive others mistakes, which at times are there and sometimes are simply the figment of our imagination. It is believed that what you see in others is also in you, if we see criticism, intolerance, hatred in others then I guess we should take a close look at ourselves too.
I sincerely apologize for my unpleasant disposition but sometimes it better to express rather to withhold.
With prayers of love and peace for all.
Sonya. (Day 71)
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