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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
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Prayers for a friend


As I was preparing to start yesterday’s post I suddenly felt drowsy and slept almost immediately. What more one could expect at 10.30 pm because this is my time to dose off. Although for past few days the sleep hasn’t been well and I wake up earlier before the designated time.

A text message from my friend whose near one would be going into surgery next Wednesday and we all hope and pray that it all goes well and may health and prosperity showers on my dearest friend. As much as I try in futility to move on with my daily work yet worry keeps on pricking.

People say that under these circumstances what can one do but pray. I wonder why praying is always left as the last resort. Like in the movies when the doctors says, “we can’t do anything for the patient now so its time you start praying”. I believe that prayers should be resorted to as the first thing and not as a means of human helplessness.

And the sleep strikes again so I would end this post here.

With prayers for new and brighter things morrow. Good Night to all…
 
Sonya. (Day 222

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