Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Its almost 12:00
am and way beyond my sleep time but when you decide to do something then you do
it. For past few months I am having regular headaches in the evening, I believe
that my cervical or sinus could be the obvious reasons.
Since I have
started to paint I have developed some sort of allergy with paints and I am
unable to use my sense of smell properly. So today I thought I should take some
steam and green tea. However, I was in no mood of having something as flat as
green tea so I got an idea of adding a bit of coffee with tea and honey.
If at any point
in your life you decide to take green tea with coffee, then my only advice to
you is to be brave because you would taste the strangest of beverage.
Nevertheless, it comforted my sinus and satisfied the need to have a different
taste.
There are
moments in life when nothing seems to work and you become shaky in your prayers
and faith but this is the time when we need to really go with the flow of
life. It is in these times when you need to surrender yourself completely to
God and offer no resistance.
I have learned
that the best way to surrender and accept our life situations or people in it,
is by being grateful. Yes, this is the time when we need to say Thank You God
more than ever. If you cannot find anything to be happy for in the present
moment, then you need to take out everything from your past when you were happy
and say thank you with all your heart. You have to dig deep for every little blessing so you could keep on
thanking.
And then one fine
day when you are moving along your day beautiful surprises began to
emerge.
If someone asked
me few months ago whether I am a grateful person, I would have said ‘Yes, I say
thank you when anybody does me a favour’. However being truly grateful is much
more beyond saying ‘thank you’ twice or thrice a day.
Gratitude is so
powerful that it changes your life especially your state of mind dramatically.
I think gratitude is the cure of all illnesses, poverty and unloving
situations.
Before I read
the book ‘The Magic’, I was living in a state of darkness. However, since I
read and fully absorbed this book my darkness has transformed into light.
I am trying my
best to practice gratitude in every moment of every day. You might not get
billion dollars in your bank account; however, you become intensely aware and
grateful of whatever you have. Its like waking up from deep sleep.
With the power
of gratitude you become excited to have hundred rupees in your wallet; you
become aware that it is such an enormous blessing to have food available when
you feel hungry. Think of the time when you felt hungry, the brain slows and
your movements become sluggish.
It is so ironic
that we waste our entire lives waiting for four or five great occasions to be
happy for, while ignoring those millions of blessings which we experience daily
in every moment.
May the joy of gratitude be with
all of us. Amen!
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