Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Yesterday seemed
to be the longest and toughest day of my life when I had to drive for straight one
and half hour when the actual distance was hardly 25 minutes. One of the commercial
areas of Karachi was jam-packed with traffic, nobody knew what happened or what
is going to become of us.
I thought that
probably it would take me an entire day to reach my destination and return
home. However, miracle happened and I not only found my way but also reached
for my appointment just in the right time.
These
days I am living quite an energetic life with so much to do that I find 24
hours not enough for my activities. Physical tiredness could be handled easily by
the right amount of rest; whereas the mental fatigue caused by disappointments
or exaggerated expectations needs other creative outlets.
Sometimes
we need to learn our lessons the hard way, sometimes we need to wake up from
our fantasies and face the crude realities. Whatever happens I have decided
never to pollute myself from harmful thoughts, because in the end the person
who gets affected the most is only you.
Well we need
to understand that sometimes things just don’t go our way and the best way to
deal with them is simply to accept everything without any resistance.
You see, its
like when you are driving late at night and suddenly the car tyre is punctured.
You are standing alone in the middle of nowhere, there is no mechanic or other
car in sight and you don’t even know how to change the tyre. What are you going
to do then?
There is no
point in getting angry or cursing your car. What you do is simply accept that
tyre is punctured and there is nothing you can do about it. Once you fully accept
the situation without any anger or fear; surrender it to the Higher Power; and
then a solution shall present itself.
May be another
car will come by or you would find a way, but in the peaceful acceptance of the
situation- solutions shall appear. I too shall hope, that I may be able to
peacefully accept whatever life presents to me. Amen!
Sonya Syed.
(Day 401)
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