Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
It is 30th
September and after years of embarrassment with my dearest friend Sadia Abid Saleem I
finally remembered her birthday. Not only that I remembered it but made a small
arrangement of giving her a surprise visit with a bunch of flowers. Regrettably Amma had a mild fever so
chores at home were to be looked after therefore my visit to my
friend’s home was postponed; yet calls were made and greetings were given.
It has been
a regular with us that whenever we have an occasion we give each other flowers.
She is the only person besides my Uncle and Aunty who give me flowers as a
birthday gift therefore she is also one of the most content recipients of bouquet.
Most of the people even my
mother believes that flowers last for few hours and it is wise to gift
something which can last for 6 months to few years at least. Well this is a
valid point but you cannot replace the sheer joy which these delicate flowers
bring. Everything does not have to be valued in monetary terms, in profit or
loss.
More than my wishing her she
was happy that this year I actually remembered her birthday besides my own and
my Mamo’s. I cannot forget my Uncle’s birthday because he was born on 25th
December and it is hard to miss this date as it is not only Christmas but also this is Quaid-e-Azam
Muhammad Ali Jinnah’s (founder of Pakistan) date of birth.
It is far more
embarrassing that I can’t remember either my mother or my cousin’s birthday, I
am always confused whether it 16 or 18 June and 15 or 17 July.
However, the most
embarrassing times were when I used to forget Maria Lakhani's birthday and she is my
best friend since Class 6. So you can imagine the level of embarrassment in her
case. There were actual occasions when Maria used to call me on her birthday
and ask me “Sonya aren’t you forgetting
something”. After a while when I would finally realize what she was
referring to I always apologized and wished her. Yet for couple of years now my
mother has taken this responsibility of reminding me these highly important dates
and saving my face.
The social networking sites
are also blessing for people like me. Whenever there is a birthday they notify
you and keep on doing that until you finally wish your friends.
Please note that I do not do
this forgetting stuff purposely or due to any carelessness, if you show me a
face I can remember and recognize it after an eternity it is only difficult for
me to remember both names and dates.
What matters most is that my sincerity and love for my friends is always there and I am sure that even with all my shortcomings they forgive me and love me too.
My dear ones in fondness..Good evening..
Sonya. (DAY 213)
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