Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Karachi Fashion week is to commence from 6th -9th
October and I am desperate to attend it. Please do not jump from your seats because I
want to attend it merely as a guest and not as a model. I just felt like
clarifying it because most of the people whom I informed about my wish, blankly
looked at my face. Only after I clarified my intentions they took a breath of
relief and assured me that if it is in your destiny then you shall attend it.
Although it is not a big deal to attend but these events are not
publicized and tickets if are sold then they are circulated within a limited
range of people.
It was such a shame that I missed Lux Style Awards, because I knew
the people who could have given me passes, probably for free..hahaha..
I can understand few of you might be surprised or even shocked to
know my keen interest in fashion. Well I like fashion, clothes or shoes and
especially bags have my sincere affections with them. However, all this is
limited to learn about new things and to meet new people. Since when it comes
to shopping for any of the above items I became a turtle. I get tired,
lethargic, hungry, nauseous within 15 minutes of going for any sort of shopping;
I only buy when I am in desperate need.
After a while I thoroughly cleaned up my room, for some time now
we are looking for a housekeeper but
could not find anyone suitable. So yesterday I decided to roll up my sleeves
and get down to business, it was a joyful activity indeed.
You know your room, every
nick and corner and above all you know how to do your work the best way. Of
course there is help and work can be delegated yet the satisfaction of doing
everything on your own is far superior.
Julia Roberts one of the highest paid Hollywood
actress does not have any maid or domestic help of any kind. She wakes up at
dawn, cook, clean her house, raise her three little children, work in movies
and earns $ 20 million per movie. She is also my favorite actress and I wish to
get at least some inspiration from her, except for working in movies.
From movies I remember that in 1940 my paternal
grandfather had actually worked in a movie “Eik Din ka Badshah” in the main role. Many young men
in 1940’s ran from their homes to work in films in Bombay (now Mumbai), however, their families
did not respect this profession. Therefore, a fake letter was send informing my
grandfather that his mother was seriously ill and that he should return home immediately.
Worried he returned home only to find that it was a plan engineered by his
family to have him back, then get him married and settled forever with his
family.
Alas, I wished my great grandfather did not send that letter for
we could have been settled like Raj Kapoor’s family, I could have been a
Bollywood superstar and my friends you could have been my desperate fans dying
to get my glimpse and my autograph.
And then I wake up and remember that my evening prayers are
pending, this post needs to be published on the blog and I have to sleep.
Cheers to our dreams.. may you too, have some….
Good Evening.
Sonya. (Day 210)
Comments
I agree Zara about this thin fad.. i hope we can get some sense into people.