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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
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Saturday Night (For 1st October)


It has been a while since I went out on Saturday; it was not a visit for fun but more for getting household necessities. Immense joy emerged from within to witness busy roads and everyone out with their families to go for shopping, to attend weddings or even to watch cricket match. 

Orange hued streetlights glistening roads, wedding halls decorated like brides, a nearby stadium had flood lights and packed to a thousand audience. What I really absorbed tonight is difficult to put in words but all I am able to say is that seeing so much life everywhere, vibrating and pulsating, infuse in me utmost delight.

Residents of Karachi after going through so much crisis have beaten their fear and like always moved along with their fast pace life. I wish that we all live in peace and joy for an eternity.

It is not advisable though to go for grocery shopping on Saturdays because the stores are almost jam packed with people and a billion children. My trolley was crashing with almost everyone and everything. 

I knew that there would hustle and bustle yet I made a list of things to buy which were not urgent; my hidden agenda to go for shopping was to get myself mocha frappe, my beloved cup of coffee.

Homewards I mysteriously felt as if I am not where I am physically. As if I am somewhere else, maybe I was somewhere in spirit or maybe the strong coffee which I just had was effecting my brain.

Whatsoever it may be, I still wish you all a wonderful weekend.

Sonya (Day 214)

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