Sonya Syed

I do not know the reason but I just wanted this to be my tag line for today. I am so grateful for all the prayers and love which I am receiving these days. Some of my family members are performing Umrah these days and their prayers are enveloping me in sheer love.            If you listen carefully to your heart and focus on your feelings you can actually experience people’s prayers for you. It is magnificent when your kith and kin love you; nevertheless, it is a blessing when people genetically unrelated to you have compassion for you.              We all have a very bollywood oriented idea of love- where a dashing boy meets a beautiful girl, they sing and dance, get separated by the harsh world, boy fights the villain, get back the girl of his dream, again sing and dance, and live happily after. Love has different meaning for all of us. For me love means happiness, health, prosperity, forgiveness and accepting everyone just as they are without the the compulsive ne

“After a good dinner one can forgive anybody, even one's own relations.” Oscar Wilde from A Woman of No Importance . I cannot express how much the above is true and how amazingly one can change in his/her views on life after having gastronomic satisfaction. Few hours ago when I wrote the first draft of today’s post, I was bitter and angry, mostly on the political system but now after a good dinner I am a changed person. Everything seems to make sense now. These days my family is complaining about my extra busy schedule but I am very happy with it. Sometimes keeping yourself busy especially with creative and productive activities becomes a blessing. Yes, at first, it might appear that I am unconcerned about the people whom I am connected to, but to be honest it is my therapy. My problem is that I am too concerned about everybody in my life, to the extent that it exhausts me, drains me of my energy. So these days I am taking few steps back and trying to do someth

Today has been a long day, from the morning the spirit of lethargy has possessed me. All I want is to doze off, just calm down the mind, because it has been hyper-active throughout the week.  Sometimes it is strange that you feel irritated as if you need to do something but don’t know what it is. You carefully read and re-read your To-do list and there is nothing missing there. So what is the reason for such discomfort ? Am I suppose to finish a chore that I have completely forgotten or do I have to speak with somebody. Ahh so many questions but, alas no answer.... Today I have been trying to select my picture to upload it on facebook; however it has been a struggle in vain. The ones I already have, had been uploaded on fb at least 100 hundred times and my friends and family have pleaded me not to repeat them anymore.  One of my best pictures had been on fb profile for more than a year, so one day I received a desperate email from my cousin. She said, ‘ Sonya baji I

All my students are quite content with me today for I have given each one of them either an A+ or an A on their assignments. More than their happiness, I am glad that they are getting my point. Sometimes while I am teaching I have this outer body experience where I feel as if I   am watching myself from a distance, as a person addressing different mix of audience with all the clarity of ideas and expression.     I have come a long way from a being person who had an intense fear of public speaking to who I am today. Throughout my school life, my teachers had only one remark for me ‘lack of confidence’ in all my report cards. And then came my BBA where for the first time I had to do presentations in front of my class of 25 pupils. My knees used to shiver from fear, I had severe cold sweat attacks whenever my teachers asked me to speak.  At times couple of my teachers as soon as they entered the class would announce that ' today we are going to make presentation

                I have to thank my friend for helping me with my emotional cleansing, for going that extra mile for me in selecting the right people and then finally helping me to release my inner demon, my hidden anger. There are definitely guardian angels working with all of us, sometimes they are disguised as humans.                   You take up a spiritual path and you get the idea that now you are free of all negativity, that now you are all peace. But honestly you are living in fool’s paradise because what you have done is simply hidden the dust under the mat. One triggering event comes and you are back to square one with all the hidden material to deal with.                   Nevertheless, we can only be cured if we accept that we are unwell. We can only learn and grow only if we accept that the knowledge we have is insufficient. Similarly in order to be actually healed we need to first accept that there are issues with us that need to be dealt with. Then the neg