Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
I
have to thank my friend for helping me with my emotional cleansing, for going
that extra mile for me in selecting the right people and then finally helping
me to release my inner demon, my hidden anger. There are definitely guardian
angels working with all of us, sometimes they are disguised as humans.
You
take up a spiritual path and you get the idea that now you are free of all
negativity, that now you are all peace. But honestly you are living in fool’s
paradise because what you have done is simply hidden the dust under the mat. One
triggering event comes and you are back to square one with all the hidden
material to deal with.
Nevertheless,
we can only be cured if we accept that we are unwell. We can only learn and
grow only if we accept that the knowledge we have is insufficient. Similarly in
order to be actually healed we need to first accept that there are issues with
us that need to be dealt with. Then the negativity gets released, comes into
our awareness and we let it go.
It
was in 2011 when I was learning and practicing acupressure at Dr. Zainab’s
Clinic, we had a patient who had been suffering from chronic arthritis since
she was 20 years old and now she is a grandmother.
For some
reason both of us connected, and she always asked for me to give her Reiki. For
me it was a pleasure because she was very affectionate and I loved being around
her.
Few
weeks into her treatment she started to feel better and then one day while I had
almost completed our Reiki session she looked at me and said, ‘you know Sonya I
got this muscular pain in my knees when I was about to get married.’
She continued,
‘I wanted to marry my cousin but he was not an educated man, so my father
refused the proposal and married me to my husband.
‘For
two years, after my marriage I quietly lived with the pain of not marrying the
one I liked, and that’s when I got arthritis.
But you know
what, today I am very thankful to my father who married me to the most
wonderful person. My cousin whom I initially wanted to marry turned out be a
terrible husband to his wife because he always forces her to get modern and
extra friendly with his business partners.
Today I finally
realized that I have so much to be grateful for, my loving husband, my
beautiful family and my grand children. Today I have realized that I tortured
myself for two years for somebody who was not even worth anything in my life.'
It
was then in that moment she suddenly realized the cause of her 30 years old chronic
arthritis. She bravely accepted the truth. And that’s when she got healed.
A
very Good Night!
Sonya Syed. (Day 409)
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