Sonya Syed

Finally I made it to the post today: my comfort zone, my love, few days away from it feels like ages have passed. What do you call this, love or what?  Although currently my new book is also another attraction in my life to which I have currently dedicated my time. I did not even have the faintest idea of how things would turn out to be, how much and what sort of self revelation that book is going to give.  We all live throughout our lives believing whatever we think is true about ourselves but the moment one decides to look beyond the daily drama of our lives, to witness things (past, present or future) merely as an observer without any attachments and simply documenting the data unimagined things pop up not only about us but also the people who have deepest of impacts on our being. So winter is in full swing and it feels like freezing, but its only me who is going through freeze time since everyone else around me is unable to share the intensity of my cold....

Thoroughly enjoyed the long, long weekend but on the 4th day it became boring and lazy and I started to miss my routine life; so much for the ungrateful human who is never happy under any circumstance. When I didn’t get a break I would beg and pray for one and when I get one, it is boring. It has been pretty cold in Karachi especially when none of us is ever prepared for those extra chilly winds. However, it is always wise to make the most of everything, to fully  live every bit of any season. Although on certain occasions it becomes unbearable to completely live in some moments due to the extreme emotions or the pain they inflict on us. Yet we are left there to either fight or flight since flying is not usually an option so we have to choose the fighting. Life is coming into some kind of focus and I’m taking baby steps into the unknown, small leaps into the future with my faith. Yet the jerks of fear are inevitable, it is strange that the moment we believe that we have outd...

A Merry Christmas to all my friends, may this blessed day brings all the happiness and joy into your lives…… Long weekend is coming up with the possibility of 4 holidays, ah nothing feels as good as some a bit time off from the routine. When I don’t have to do anything and just be in total nothingness it is the most wonderful & relaxing state to be in. Winters are always fun to be around, there is always over-eating and for me personally when I do breakfast I only think of what shall I be having next in lunch or dinner. Food becomes the main attraction with most of the creative ideas coming in every second. Sometimes I wish things to happen a bit less dramatically with me, but no , a standard has been set probably by me unconsciously or subconsciously to have larger than life events with full graphical effects. Today I went for some shopping and just opposite the mall there was the office of my ex-boss so out of blue I thought of giving him a visit it was actually after 2 y...

It has been a busy day with more exhaustion of the mind rather than the body. It is so true that when the mind is peaceful and focused life becomes effortless. However, it is always beneficial to understand the reality of people/things rather being in dark and living in fantasy wonderland, it is wise to face whatever is required to be faced irrespective of how difficult it would be in coming to terms with the reality. I am amazed to see nowadays as to how many people are becoming interested in mind sciences (like hypnosis or telepathy, etc), spiritual healing. Well as far as the intention is pure and only to heal someone and do good to others I believe this would be the perfect recipe of your spiritual growth and also integral for evolving to be a wonderful human. I have very unfortunately to say that there are people who after gaining knowledge of such a sensitive science forgets that this knowledge is given to us only for the vast benefit of human kind and not to fulfil our own...

It is the toughest things to digest yet it is the truth that we are mostly responsible for keeping our true joy miles and miles away from us. We stand in our own way whether in the name of our illness or our past or due to our undue attachment and obsession for the welfare of others. We sheepishly make ourselves believe that the world wouldn’t be the same if we are not there taking care of everything personally or that we are the ones who can protect or support anybody. When the reality is quite opposite; world moves on with or without us, we can only take care of things only up to a certain point simply because beyond that all is handled by an unknown Supreme Power who has the capability to handle million of lives, the entire solar system, and trillion other things all at the same time and that Power can of course take care of our teeny weeny existence as well. The sooner we comprehend this concept the better it is, there are times when we need to step aside and let life go with its...

Life is finally becoming a great adventure where I am always experiencing new things and doing some of the most unusual things. Recently I had a very close encounter with fear, it was actually a dream or a flash or whatever you may like to call it where I saw a very dark cloud of black fumes hovering over my head from which hands are coming out and trying to hold me or something like that, it was all quite graphic. I was alone on my floor although my family also lives with me but I got so scared from all of this that I couldn’t even call out for anybody and thought someone is coming to take me or my time is up. So I called my guru but she couldn’t be contacted and then I thought of speaking to mom but then changed my mind because I couldn’t tell her how I felt or what I say as it might worry her about my mental state. In that moment of fear I decided to go for some Divine help and immediately started reading “Surah Yaseen”. As I was reading the Surah I felt...

As my PC was opening up today, in my usual restlessness I clicked and started three programs simultaneously so as a consequence everything got stuck; after a couple of minutes finally everything started one by one. I suddenly realized that this is exactly what I do in my life; I want everything in my life to appear in a second and I simply do not possess the “patience for waiting”. Then what comes out as a result is more waiting spiced up with frustration, a pitfall with humans. It has become a routine with me for not being an irregular at the blog; by the way it is one of the things which I truly cherish in my life. Yet my unusually new and erratic sleep patterns developed very recently are taking over my most relaxing activity, the blog. I get two to three deep sleep calls lasting from 5 to 40 minutes; the first one around 5 pm, the second one between 6 to 7 pm and the last but not least one at exactly 9 pm. The sleep which I encounter at these times is unusual because I feel a...

I was absolutely energized as I decided to write today’s post but the moment I sat down sudden wave of deep sleep entered and it is only 9 pm. Tomorrow a new day and some new adventures are on their way, irrespective of the outcome I am taking on the challenge and hope to be my best. I guess this is what should be our modus operandi in every deed, we waste so much of our energy and focus in worrying about the end result, about winning or loosing, and ignoring completely the journey which takes us to that outcome. Everything to us is a means to an end and in this way we reduce the sanctity of all those moments which leads us to the end. So should we not make any goal or think for the future; of course not. We must keep it in our minds whatever we want to achieve nevertheless make it secondary and the journey our primary aim. Quite a few times I have seen this with me as well as with others that if we get to design something new or do a project or any assignment or even while cooking o...

Rushing things is never a good idea, we do one thing and our mind starts to work on the next thing; at times we multitask nevertheless the end product in such a over-worked state is always below average. Currently five things are simultaneously going on in my poor little brain and I really hope to do justice to all of them.   Past few days I have not been busy but plain lazy I wanted to desperately write the posts yet it became difficult and still I slept late and woke up early, cheers to my efforts to go to bed by 10:30: pm. I have seen this so many times with me that whenever I intentionally make an effort to do something whether it is sleeping early or doing any chore or especially taking care of my hair and hopelessly trying to style them I fail miserably. Probably my desperation becomes just too much so instead of attracting what I want I repel it. With Eid passed so swiftly and the year almost coming to an end and the fact it has been an year since I began wri...