Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
I am intimated and embarrassed
due to my friend’s baby boy who is hardly two years old. This baby who is only
in this world for less than two years, he cannot even speak properly, and have just
learned to walk is operating IPad like a pro. His grandfather asks him to open GEO
News on his Ipad and he quickly does that. I wish I could show you the video.
What is going on here, where am I
living or more appropriately which era do I belong to? I mean this is crazy, even
after a year of using a Smartphone I still can’t figure out how to send a business
card.
Until two months ago I didn’t even
know that there is something like viber or whatsapp, it was only after my
Acupressure & Reiki professor begged me to install & use these apps I began
using this stuff.
She said, ‘today even a 70 year
old person is far more tech savvy than you’. I was a person who would keep my cellphone
miles away from my room on a stand at the dining table in the lounge. If my
callers were lucky then I would receive their calls.
I think when you understand the
importance of something then you begin to use it fully. On the other hand, if
anything is only an electrical device for you having no significance except of
making calls and checking emails then you don’t even bother to take a second
look at its functionality.
Another huge factor for my
inaptness is my lazy attitude which hampers most of my technical growth.
Nevertheless, when everyone
around you begins to point out that if you don’t know how to use these gadgets then
you are not one of them. Now that’s a valid point.
Today, however is a new day and I
am a new person. If anything, at least now I am trying to change but I need something
strong to inspire me, something that would push me beyond my comfort zone. Becoming
a technical outcast is a good motivation, nevertheless there has to be
something more than the fear.
In the wish for something more....
Good Night!
Sonya. (Day 431)
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