Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Is it only me or any one of you
is also feeling lethargic, out of sync with you energies. As I write today
our new government is in place and we are all waiting for that 100 days action
that everyone seems to be promoting these days.
100 days was actually an Indian movie
in which the heroine used to get premonitions. Well there is absolutely no
connection of the movie with this new government but I just thought I should
enlighten you with my esteemed general knowledge.
For almost a month I have been experiencing
pangs of lethargy for reasons both known and unknown, and I thought I am losing
my blog writing ability or every other creative ability that I have.
It was a frightening thought, because
after years of laborious self work I have learned few things to move on with some purpose in my life. And there was no way that I want to return to my old
self, a hard core ambitious lawyer, for whom there was no place for any kind of
soft emotions.
Sometimes we are so afraid of being
vulnerable and getting hurt that we try everything in our power to guard
ourselves. But it does not serve any good to anybody, especially yourself.
Sometimes your strength lies in
your weakness. Sometimes the best remedy for not getting hurt is to face eye-to-eye
what pains you most. When you look directly at your fears then only you can dissolve
them, because fear is only of the unknown. So when you know then it is not
frightening anymore.
Well I must that say we live in
the age of miracles and ultimate possibilities, and my especial thank goes to
the great social media. Few months ago there was a guest writer celebrity who
was at several Oprah Winfrey Shows and Oprah herself interviewed him.
Would you believe that only few
days ago I actually chatted with the same person on facebook. And then there was
another female writer who is a friend of Hollywood actors like Brad Pitt, Jennifer Aniston & Demi Moore, who
personally emailed me on several times me in reply to my email where I wanted
her to clarify some of the contents of her book. We might also have one on one video conferencing soon.
I mean this is crazy that I have
reached Hollywood, even though indirectly but still it is really big for me. It
is only because of the Grace of God and very effective social media where we
can connect with anybody.
With lots of love..
Sonya Syed (Day 428).
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