Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
More work less energy, in fact
the work I have is piling up into a huge mountain of unfinished paper work. These
days I am not in mood to do anything and prefer to be a couch potato, which is definitely
not a good idea health wise. The energy levels
are down these days either, intentionally or unintentionally.
I think when some important
matters of our life remain unsettled the mind takes up the entire energy to
resolve them. So the energy which is left for our daily work is then reduced a
great deal.
Just to get my energy back I am taking coffee twice a day but the
lethargy is still there in its full bloom. I don’t know what to do, I wish I can
get some secret medicine which can give back my energy.
Today is the first Sunday after a
long time when guests are coming in consecutively, some old and some new family
friends are dropping by to say hello. It is so wonderful to meet and greet
people at home, especially at my place. I love to be a host and I love it even
more when I am invited to other people’s home.
To see others at home in a relaxed
mode with their families and have long chats about how busy everyone is these
days, about the Turkish plays which though we criticize but still love to
watch, about our new prime minister and his progress, discussions as to
everything is so expensive, humid weather, children and their schools, about
the maids.
It is so fortunate if you have company of people with whom you can
talk for hours.
Sunday is almost coming to an end
and tomorrow is another day, I hope that it may be filled with peace and joy
for everyone of you as well as your loved ones.
Shab-bakhair, Shubratri, Good
Night!
Sonya Syed. (Day 456)
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