Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Finally, finally I am here! I feel so happy to have the time to come and talk to you all. It was
so disturbing that I was unable to be on the blog, it almost felt as if I could not breath.
Since we had a little bit of
paint at home everything got upside down. There is one chore after another, day
ends but the work does not. Although we did not do any major changes but once
you get to cleaning so much comes out. By the time I got some free moments I
was so exhausted that even looking at the computer tired me.
Today I thought
come what may but I shall write. Blogging is one of the most comforting activities
for me because it relaxes my mind. It is my outlet to say whatever I wish and
if I have something positive to share then its all good.
It is a blessing
to be with all of you who have stood by me for four years now. Yup I started
this blog on December 2008 and it has been wonderful journey.
Yesterday for
some strange reason I stopped at a channel which was showing a makeup tutorial.
The model was really pretty with beautiful almond eyes, and the alleged makeup
expert was dressing her for mehndi.
As she applied
the yellow-gold eye shadow on the model a sudden rush of current moved through
my spine. After few seconds when I came back to my senses I realized that her
eye makeup scared me to death and I was
in shock. The first thought that came to my mind was about the groom who would
have to see this Fear Factor up close. I mean really it was just too much
makeup and on mehndi..
Why do we have
to apply layers and layers of whitening powder, dark eye shadows, to give a
glowing look? No wonder all brides-to-be go through sleep less nights when they
had to select the beautician for their big day. It does not matter if you are paying 7k or Rs.50k for your makeup, the risk is always the same.
On a wedding day
guests on stage stand only few inches away from the bride and what we mostly
see is white layered bride. The white foundation, the cake or powder is almost
visible to everybody present. Some argue that heavy makeup is not for the
guests it is for the cameras and pictures. Then again even if the makeup is for
cameras it can be done in lighter tones expertly and would still look great
both off and on screen.
I am no one to
judge but even the brides is white gowns with controlled makeup look stunning,
it’s a matter of balance.
I am sorry for
all my male readers who have to read such an in depth makeup analysis but this
is the beauty of our blog that I can say whatever is on my mind without the
apprehension of being judged.
Once again I am
so grateful to be able write and to have all of you as my extended family.
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!
Sonya. (Day 394)
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