Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
At last got some vigour and inspiration to come on blog as the constant news coming in of massive devastations in so many parts of Pakistan had completely sucked the energy out of me.
It almost felt guilty to sit comfortably in our homes and to talk about trivial things of life, a luxury, and the only wish which would come in these times is that every single person in the country must be peaceful & secured. Having said that it is also imperative in these times to be tremendously and profoundly grateful for all the countless great things which we all are blessed with.
Still we want to know that why there is so much destruction and agony everywhere we turn around; I guess to understand the workings of God is rather an impossible task to achieve. It’s quite like a man-made landscape which when we see can comprehend easily because a mind like ours has manufactured it. On the other hand, if we go to a real and natural forest all we can see is trees and shrubs growing everywhere and in every direction, all of it would appear to be overwhelming and extremely confusing; of course it is incomprehensible to a human mind as it is not created by another human rather it is the creation of Nature or God. To a human mind it might look chaotic nevertheless behind all that apparent disorder there is a perfect order, an ideal mechanism is at work there. So it might feel like the problems that Pakistan is facing now are beyond our understanding and baffling yet we need to realize that a perfect order is working behind it.
And all that is required from us is to have faith and pray, because prayers are the medium of miracles.
I apologize if what I wrote has distressed any of you; please know that it wasn’t deliberate however under the circumstances this is the best I could do.
In prayers for a better, peaceful & a merry tomorrow for everyone.
Sonya. (Day 113)
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