Routines

Long working days with erratic sleeping habits could continue smoothly for a little while only and then comes the spiraling down period. The most crucial aspect of life: sleep, when gets ignored or bullied it could give some unhealthy results and this is what happened in my case.

I, for so long have been going to sleep pass the due bedtime and as a consequence I am unable to concentrate or focus on any thing now, my taste buds are upset and my memory is affected as well; most of the time I feel drowsy or just want to sleep. So please if any of you does the same thing with your sleep then do take care of yourself. All these apparently little things are not that inconsequential after all, because of the seemingly trivial things in life could prove vital to your existence.

I have a burning desire to learn playing a guitar yet I could not find an appropriate teacher. It is such an irony that whenever we want something desperately in our lives it drifts farther away from us, may be our desperation is the underlying force which repel our desires. Desperation means that I need it badly and urgently, that is I feel lack, and this feeling of lack and needing badly creates more of the lack and the need badly state.

I think I should just take 2 deep breadths, relax and make belief within myself that I already know how to play guitar perfectly as this might just do the trick and I would attract the state where I would actually know how to play the guitar.

Ok fellas' its been nice talking to all of you and now I would have to return to my paper work.

Adious amigos…

Sonya. (Day 137)