Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
There are times when words flow
without any restraint and then there are moments when thoughts are present but
no appropriate words to express them. Something of the like is happening to me,
there is so much to say that I’m rendered speechless.
Multitasking is revered these
days and it has been presumed to have many benefits but in my case its
different. Rather than getting any results it had completely overwhelmed me. In
August I have to complete two very important assignments because other activities
are going to start which would have their own demands. Once committed, I don’t
like to escape from my responsibilities so it all needs to be managed
beforehand.
My issue is that first I jump
into situations and then I think whether I should have done this or not. When
it should be the opposite, where one plans first and then dive into new
adventures. No proper planning can make a person an unguided missile.
How swiftly we have reached mid
of Ramadan even with long hours fasting has become a lot easier due to the
lite weather. Nonetheless, there is something strange about the weather, with
all its cool breezes there is some subtle discomfort in it. I cannot point it
out but I can feel it so its better that we have rains or else this strangeness
along with viral infections would continue.
Need to go and get along with
some of my pending work or I wouldn’t be able to sleep peacefully tonight.
Sweet Dreams……
Sonya. (Day 337)
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