Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Everything happens for a reason
and for our own good.....Today as I was plugging my PC this line was
flashing in my mind. I am now beginning to
understand why our elders always say this to us.
Few days ago my Computer started
to feel unwell, so I consulted couple of technicians and they all said that a certain
device has broken down and it needs to be replaced.
Yesterday in my usual haste
and without taking any further advice I went to a huge computer store to buy
that device. The staff at the store was impersonal
and not in any mood to be cooperative, then they made me sit there for 45
minutes while their manager hopelessly searched for my particular device.
After that extra long wait they
informed me that the device I require is out of stock and I have the option of
purchasing another version costing almost double. Although a bit upset with
their behaviour I decided not to say anything especially not to create any
scene there.
I was continuously telling
myself, no matter what I will not be negative. I will not allow anger or
irritation to enter my energy field. I have been practicing Gratitude for quite
a while so I will only be thankful for
this situation.
Anyways I came to a computer store
near my home from where we all buy most of our computer accessories and
devices. The reason why I didn’t went to them initially was because the device I
needed was out of stock at their store.
The owner who personally knows my
family quickly made arrangements and I got another suitable version in 5
minutes. However, when I returned home and my technician installed the new
device- he announced that my computer still has the same problem. He then diagnosed
that there is some other issue with my computer.
You see the device I got was
quite expensive and once we have unpacked the device then it cannot be
returned. In that moment, I began to get slightly panicky because more than the
money two things were circling in my mind. First, how come my intuition didn’t inform
me about all this? Or probably it did but I was not paying attention.
Second, I’m strictly practicing Gratitude
and it is said, ‘the more you feel Grateful for what you have the More you shall
attract to be Grateful for’.
My gratitude always comes
through, it cannot let me down- so what happened?
So today feeling a bit worried I went
to the store to return the device and for the correct diagnosis of my Computer.
To my surprise, the store manager not only quietly took back the unpacked device,
refunded all my money and in few minutes replaced the digital card on my
computer and that too with a discount.
In that moment it occurred to me,
if I would have bought this device from that huge, impersonal and uncooperative
computer store where I went initially- they would have never refunded my money let
alone recognized me.
Everything happens for a reason and for our own good.
We cannot see or touch God but it
is through these million moments of our daily life where we can easily experience
His presence telling us to be Grateful for what we have today- no matter what
happens.
Lots of Love.
Sonya Syed. (Day 415)
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