Sonya Syed

I miss reading my books, there are couple of them which are lying in my room waiting for me to pick them up, to smell the fragrance of pages, to cherish them with my eyes and allow them to enrich my senses. But the paucity of time or my inability to mange it properly is the main hindrance and whenever I would get some free time I just become a couch potato. Concentration is such a fragile entity that if not handled carefully it could vanish into thin air. So is the case with me tonight, there are couple of things on my mind and I am becoming impatient to connect and resolve them. However, there are some delicate matters which are better handled if you do absolutely nothing to resolve them- just wait patiently and watch everything to fall into its place. Patience is very much a crucial ingredient in the recipe of life as it also another side of faith. Faith on an Unseen Power or Energy; faith on the instinctive feeling and the resolute faith that the wish shall be fulfilled. Although ...

Appreciation especially when come from a close quarter is beyond any well-celebrated achievement award. Acknowledgment of our efforts and the sincerity with which they are conducted would always keep one in high spirits. Its once again midnight and I am as usual pass my due bedtime, I don’t understand that the more I struggle to get things done within my schedule the more they go out of hands. I need to give a serious thought to all this and be absolute about them but dearest ones if I continue anymore in this drowsy state which I am in, I fear that I might fall asleep on the keyboard because now the words in front of me are becoming blurred. Its only your presence and love which invoke in me this commitment. So be there always. My love & a very Good Night. Sonya. (Day 131)

Is it only with me or the rest of you could also sense the ephemerality of days. It was Monday only yesterday and then there is another one and Fridays arriving within two days. Beside an hour which I dedicatedly spend on watching my favourite TV shows most of the day I keep on running from one point to another.   However, these days I have the contentment that the time I spend is worth every moment where I am either learning something new or being effective and worthwhile for others. Being of any service to others is such a phenomenal experience and the fact that there is no monetary gain involved does not effect the quality of the work. I for one has worked relentlessly for many years as a lawyer, had power, worked with some of the Bigs of legal as well as the business world and earned few bucks as well but honestly none of those above things gave me any peace. I use to be exhausted, bitter, short-tempered and always on guard with most of the people I met.   And now when the...

Thank you all so much for the special messages of love, encouragement and appreciation for me and our little blog here. It is so wonderful to have the presence of so many amazing individuals on the blog and with such perseverance. I once again thank all of you for taking time from your busy schedules to visit this blog and for the immense love which you have shown. I pray that the little family or tribe which all of us have created through this platform may prosper for all the days to come and so shall all of you. Ameen!! Monday has once again approached and so as the timetable for the coming week. Waking up early in morning then attempting to do any form of exercise and finally getting ready to embrace the beauty and warmth which the rest of the day would bring into my existence requires proper planning as well as thorough discipline. Although I seriously wanted to hang out for a little longer but then the midnight beckons me to sleep. So I apologize for the brief post today and ho...

I waited for almost four hours before I had my lunch/dinner and then began waiting for the weekend to come and do some shopping which has been postponed for quite some time. Waiting : waiting for your turn at the bank, waiting for the food to get cooked, waiting for electricity to be resumed, waiting for the red light to turn green on the road, waiting for the right time to come, waiting for everything to settle into its place- there is so much waiting in our lives on every single day that it would be safe to say that ninety percent of our lives we are actually waiting for something or for someone. Then the question would follow; what is more important whether waiting itself or our mental state while we are waiting; and if we are composed or impatient for the outcome. Well, most of them the gap or vacuum or the space which we have to endure while we await for someone or something becomes unbearable. Even though we might be well aware that the object of our desire is close to us howe...

Friendship - for some reason is the first word which came to my mind as I sat down to write today’s post. Friends are such an integral part of one’s life and everything seems incomplete without their presence. When we are children our friends mean a world to us we laugh, cry, gossip and share each other’s secret and as we grow up we transform into each others’ adviser, supporter and confidante. Irrespective of how much we are close to our parents or siblings the bond we share with our friends is all together a different dimension. With me I have to say that I truly am blessed and thankful for having two of the most wonderful people as my friends. They have always supported me advised me accepted me and loved me unconditionally. Regardless of how ridiculous my new hair cut looked or how much weight I gain they would always highlight the truer and brighter side of the things for me. There might be a gap of weeks when we talk but the moment we sit down for a rendezvous we always begi...

It has been quite a while since I actually sat down to watch any movie, mostly I loose my concentration within thirty minutes into the film, especially the latest ones. With so much technical advancement and heavy budgets, the quality and spirit of the film is lost somewhere in the glitz and glamour. The songs which are being produced these days are hardly remembered for more than 3 days and if slightly better then they might last in our memories for a week but no sir not more than that. Even though there is bombardment of new faces yet most of us are still clinging on to the earlier superstars as nobody new seems to make that charismatic impact; I can’t say if this is the case with me only or if anyone of you is experiencing the same predicament. I wonder what type of people would like to work in show business which to me is one of the most unstable and unsecured profession of all. If you make it big and reach the top slot then only you would be able to get big bucks otherwise the i...

Before I sat down for starting today’s post I thought of going about with something different but when I began the theme did not appeal me hence I decided to set aside it all together. It is wise at times to leave certain things as they are and not try to fix all that we don’t like or want, doing nothing is sometimes the best thing which one could do. I need a psychic today to tell me few things; to look at the other side and give me some insights if possible. There are occasions when we are content in not knowing certain things; nevertheless, there are also these unsatisfied moments when we must know irrespective of the nature of what manifests as the consequence of our desire- but we must know ! I am not sure of any of the above made any sense to any of you however it was much needed to come forth. I seriously thought of making some calls to people I haven’t met for a year or two but then I got skeptical of the whole idea; I surrendered the whole matter to God and asked for ...

   Lazy start of the day with an even lazy and late lunch is no less than a luxury to me. It’s a luxury when one does things at ones own desire and only when there is an absolute need for them.    There are moments when we would want to get in touch with someone but then our past experiences with them, their impressions on our mind or our own over-estimations of either people or situation forbids us to make that first move, that dreaded first move. Albeit how much we would like to communicate, our preconceived notions hinder our every move or our apprehension takes over our rational capacity to do what is right. I cannot say if there is any solution to this problem but all what I knew from my experience is to completely surrender your matter, whatever it is, to God. In these moments it is best to seek counsel of the One who is the best Knower of all things- past, present and future. Our judgements, estimations are majority of times incorrect as we do not possess th...

   Final day of festive holidays and from tomorrow life would once again get back to its normality and the same routine. Come to think of the routine life I believe it to be a blessing because it is an indicator that we are not going through any unusual excitement of life, no highs no lows just a straight horizontal line in the midst of the blank canvas.       While I was away from my PC I was anxious to open it and share a thought or two with all of you and now when I am finally sitting in front of it I don’t have any thoughts in mind. There is stillness in the mind and neutrality in the feelings, which is again a blessing and a fruit of one & half years of thorough mental and emotional labour.      Most of the life situations that we find ourselves in are worsened by our negative, constant and repetitive thinking. Situations are always neutral rather it is how we choose to perceive or label them makes them the experiences of hell or hea...

THANK YOU SO MUCH TO ALL MY FAMILY, FRIENDS, MY BLOG FRIENDS/EXTENDED FAMILY (FMXT) FOR YOUR WARM, LOVING WISHES ON EID FOR ME AND MY FAMILY. YOUR LOVE IS MUCH FELT AND HIGHLY REGARDED. ONCE AGAIN MANY THANKS AND A HEARTY EID MUBARAK!!!! Sonya. (Part-1 Day 123)

I wish all of you a warm and loving Eid Mubarak and I pray that this auspicious day may bring love, peace & joy in the lives of all.      There was almost pin drop silence on the Eid Day with minimum of movement in the vicinity. Now on the second day of Eid we finally have some activity on the streets and it feels more like a festival. I have to say that this has been by far one of the most beautiful and pleasant Eid I have ever experienced. The weather was simply breathtaking- it was sunny and warm during the day and exceptionally cloudy in the late afternoon, the winds were soft yet heavy with shrubbery blossoming everywhere; and the energy felt in the entire atmosphere was absolutely magnificent.      It is quite amazing to notice as to how swiftly the days are passing by; or is it that we are increasingly becoming busy and engrossed with our minds and its constant thinking or chatter which has placed us in a trance-like state, hence we could not be...

Many many apologizes for my absence but the paucity of time and my lack of energy are the main causes for my distance from you all. Doing something for a long time and then suddenly taking such prolonged breaks is tremendously burdensome for my poor constitution; there is always a guilt for the lack of discipline and not being able to talk with you all regularly.   Past 10 or 15 days I am not feeling well and not in those high spirits, so to open up my PC for even checking my emails seemed like a gigantic task. Nevertheless, on Eid or soon after that I would do my best to get back to the routine, but for now sorry for the quick and brief post.   Till we meet again I would take your leave and shall try to come on the blog as often as possible. Take really good care of yourselves.   Good Night. Sonya. (Day 121)

I always look in awe at the people who are peppy or in positive spirits most of the time, the energy or the vibe they emit is amazing and it has the capability of transforming the frequency of all those that are around them. I only stand in astonishment and wonder what do they do differently? As the day begins we all have our shares of anxiety or stress or fear in one form or the other in varying degrees. With so much going on every moment then how these positive people get around the day? Is there some strategy they adopt or is it the way their constitution has been built by God? I guess that it is our purpose in life to find out our own answers to these questions-by the process of trial and error, if we are not built naturally to be positive then it would our individual goal and journey to discover that which not only works best for us individually but for everybody collectively. Most of the Ramadan has passed and now this is the time of last 10 days for all the devo...

     It’s only been 7 or 8 days since I last showed up on the blog but it feels like ages have gone by; the most familiar of environs are appearing to be quite strange. Probably this is what time does to us; it has the greatest inherent quality of making things hazy in our memories, maybe this is why time is known as the best healer. First it gradually fades the memory and then the pain associated with that particular memory diminishes bit by bit.  I wonder is there any exception to this rule, is it possible to remember somebody or something which at a certain point in time seemed trivial and easily dispensable yet when it disappears from the proximity could leave an indelible mark on our consciousness. Do share with me if anyone of you had such an experience.      Nevertheless it feels good to be back, back to the routine which has now become the most vital part of my day. Although I finished up my work on Sunday but then th...