Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
For few days now I have an inkling that I
should immediately save all the blog posts on my hard drive; although this is a
mammoth task but I have to follow my instinctive feelings and start from
somewhere. Almost all posts are saved in the computer but I am not sure of if I
have edited versions of each post with me, so this process better start
tonight.
I have another task at hand and that is
to loose at least 20 to 25 pounds weight. This task needs my immediate
attention and dedication, and there is simply no room for laziness. Although
exercise has been in my routine for long time but recently I have become
inattentive to what I am eating. I do not eat large portions of meal but for
few months my diet comprises of colas and fried chicken which is nothing except
high calories, deep fried and highly starchy food.
And I cannot even have the hormone
imbalance excuse because the rule is simple you need to burn as much as you
eat. In my case I am burning 1000 calories and my intake is 2000-2500 calories.
Either I increase my exercise which is not possible so the dear calories need
to be decreased.
I always believe in healthy eating
regime and I am never a candidate for rash dieting. Dieting can only suppress
the fat cells temporarily till the so-called will power is activated. However after long periods of starving you
would ultimately give in to the hunger pangs. Dieting or poor diet instantly
shows on face with pale skin, dark circles and above all less brain power.
There was a time when I used to wake up
at 4.30 in the morning to exercise because I had to reach court around 8 pm. My
entire day was based on 3 bran slices, an apple and a small water bottle and I
had to go to Court then getting back to office and then homewards was at least
1 hour drive at 7 pm. With that routine I often got sick at least once a week
with severe flu or any other viral and the poor brain had to endure side
effects of that insufficient diet.
The goal is not to become a size zero
but to feel good and reach safely to my desired weight of 115-120 lbs or
even better 107 lbs because that was my ideal weight.
Now I am equipped with better
information and self-awareness so I hope to do better this time. Of course I
need all your prayers to do what I am determined to do in the healthiest way.
I shall be starting on my weight loss routine from Saturday 5-Novemeber-11 and I might post weight updates to keep myself answerable and under strict watch. If any of you have experiences to share or advise for me then I would love to hear from you.
Keeping my fingers crossed…
Sonya. (Day 234)
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