Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Despite all our efforts for fast paced life, time has a proclivity to take the lead. With winter swiftly imminent days are becoming shorter and shorter. And it seem we are in a rut. My close friend Sadia’s little one Mustafa had some indisposition since last week. Till today I didn’t have any idea about his state; however, throughout this week there was this unvarying feeling to call her and I feel awful due to my laziness. Of course there wasn’t anything that I could have done for her but simply being there for her would have been nice. The good news is Mustafa is doing well now.
Delight is a natural outcome when something brilliant and extraordinary emerges from a small and simple idea. I have been a bit uneasy and needed a platform from where I would be able to catch the right train for my desired destination in life. Since last month I have been getting some new ideas about how to carry on with my life both professionally and personally, writing this blog was one of those many ideas. At first, when I tried to write something I did not have a faintest idea about getting started. I wrote something and it felt pseudo intellectual material not coming from my heart rather some essay originating from my mind. I had a serious question session with God and I asked Him if I don’t have the ability to write then why on earth He would give me this crazy idea. Please note that I’ve written only question session because I heard Dr. House, of House TV show, once saying that, “if you talk to God that’s spirituality but when God talks to you it’s psychosis”. Well jokes apart, I believe that God does talk to us, of course Gabriel does not stand on the road holding a board for us but God speaks to us in many ways. Sometimes its by way of a constant but subtle sensation in our hearts telling us either to do or not to do a certain thing; then we can also hear something in a conversation with someone, maybe our friend would take a name; and at times we can also see an indication as something written on a car, or hoarding; whatever might be the way but the Answer always come and in the language that’s understandable by us.
Something similar to this happened with me, about 10 days ago a subtle yet strong Voice inside me said, “Write”. The feeling was so strong and every bone, cell, and tissue in my body; my mind, my heart were all in agreement, thus this blog was born. I can never admit that I write poetically or literarily, but what I guarantee is that everything comes straight from my heart; good or bad, it does not matter anymore. Initially, Amma was concerned about my writing but she is always encouraging. Amma is a really good writer herself, she often write articles on skin diseases in newspapers, she is a dermatologist by the way. Although a doctor by profession she has deep knowledge regarding music and films as well. I can only say that I am truly blessed to be born as her daughter.
Until something new to say it is Adios Amigos…
Sonya
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