Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Faces, many faces that came and went from my life, some of them made guest appearances while others decided to stay for the long haul. In the solitude and stillness of night when everyone is asleep and the road outside my home have swathed itself with the drapes of quietude. I cannot but cease to think of all the people that I ever had the opportunity to be with, some being my childhood pals, others from school/ college/ university and many others that I have worked with.
Time is a fantastic sieve of relationships and has an amazing characteristic of filtering people from and into our lives. For some reason we possess a tendency to forget some faces and remember others while some leave indelible mark on our minds. I cannot rationalize this theory but we do become subconsciously connected with some individuals. They teach us a lot about our self, mostly unintentionally; they prove to be beneficial for our existence, they become our Buddha experience. It’s as if they are assigned the task to bring into spotlight all the hidden aspects, the comfort zones, the excuses, the weakness behind which we like to hide. And then they disappear as if they have never existed. Perhaps they were not suppose to stay forever and the sole reason of their manifestation was to awaken us from the deep sleep; to unveil the veiled aspects of our being.
Then there are the ones who stick with us through thick and thin, they are with us when we cry and when we laugh, when we look our best and when we look our worst. Their happiness and well being become your utmost priority and you cannot help but love them. These are the precious gems that I guard with my life.
I am grateful and humbled and blessed by the Almighty Rehman who choose me to experience both these categories of people in my life and to go through whatever I went through. Thus whatever I am to day and wherever I stand in my meager existence I owe it to all those beautiful people that I have ever come across.
With much love!!!
Sonya.
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