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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
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Gratitude is the memory of the heart


What a beautiful day we have in Karachi; early morning it was bright and shinny with breezy winds, clear skies and the tree leaves gleamed as the sunlight poured its love on them. Then the clear blue sky transformed into the most delightful hues of grey. Finally it rained and the fragrance which emerged from the earth as rain-drops touched it is the wonderful aroma we could ever experience. It seemed as if the angels are pouring white diamonds from the heavens.

Irrespective of who we are or where we are, it is like a reflex action that we run towards window or terrace to get the glimpse of rain. Fried food, especially pakoras and tea become natural inclinations in this weather.

(Interestingly as I was writing this paragraph I looked up on the internet to have an English alternate word for Pakora. To my sheer surprise Pakora is a recognized word at the Oxford Online Dictionary and this is truly amazing.)

I wanted to have pictures of this weather and share with you how I see it all but due to work couldn’t take up this activity or you can say that I was too lazy to capture the picturesque scenery all around me.

The children are first to feel this magnificence of nature and if as adults we too feel the tingling sensation around our hearts then it is a sure sign that the child within is still living in us. It is our job that we must always keep this inner child alive and kicking because it is our spirit, our joy, our friend, our guide and the doorway to God.

Close your eyes and focus your mind on your heart area. You can put your right hand over your heart area and focus your mind there. Within few minutes of this focus on the heart you will get a tingling feeling around your heart, or feel a wave of joy rush through your body. Your eyes may fill tears or you may get goose bumps.* When you feel this then know that you have reached the depth of your being, you have reached your soul.

I do this practice million times in the day especially when I am saying Thank You to God for all His blessings. This is actually, how you can easily feel and say gratitude from your heart. You can also imagine that the words Thank You are coming out of your heart rather than your mind as you say them. When I practice this all my worries, stress and exhaustion fly away.

So in the beauty of the rains, I take your leave..

Love.

Sonya. (Day 292)

*Title is the Quote of Jean–Baptiste Massieu (French Revolution Activist)
* Excerpt from the book “The Magic” by Rhonda Byrne.

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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
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