Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Playing with children is one of the
most charming activity, revitalizing every cell in your body and today I had
one such ecstatic experience. Its been a long time since I had this experience,
I played hide and seek with this amazing little girl at home Sana. I started with doing the counting so
she can hide but with some cheating I found her in few seconds, then it was
decided that I shall not find her the next time. We played for quite some time
and every time she won, of course. When our game ended she was thrilled and
happy to beat me in every round and her joy filled laughter was priceless.
As a child I could never
understand why my adults got so easily tired within few minutes into the game
but today I finally get it. A child has abundant energy because there is no stress, no anxiety and definitely there is no thinking so you are always
enjoying every bit of life with full energy.
When you are a child there is
just this present moment for you, there is no past for you and the future
doesn’t exist. The present moment is always peaceful, however, as you grow up
so grows your mind with its thoughts and its attachment to the past and obsession of the
future. As an adult we are always thinking; thinking about what we have to do, what was done to us, who annoyed us or whom we annoyed- in a way mind takes over us.
When in real sense the past has
no physical presence, it is only in your mind and your constant thoughts about
it keeps it energized. As for the future, where is it, has anyone seen it? The
answer is no. Future is only the extension of this moment.
So do we not plan about future?
Yes you do plan for the future you do savings, you invest wisely, you take of
your health but is there any point in being anxious for the future. If you can
take any action then do it if you cannot then put it in the Hands of God and be
in grateful for all His Blessings.
This is the simple truth of life
and the people who gets it achieves the essence of their existence.
Someone rightly said, “it is so simple to be happy but it is so
difficult to be simple”.
With prayers of laughter and joy
for you.
Sonya. (Day 290)
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