Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Today I just want to speak, with
out any meaning or aim. Sometimes the words are not relevant but the feelings that
are required to be expressed are far more significant. It is also true that many
times when we want to speak there is nobody to listen so everything just gets
bottled up.
I can understand your confusion
over what I write but believe me it is not intentional this is how I feel so I
just spoke out.
The day went in its usual mode
thankfully; Mondays are mostly tough to attend to especially after long breaks.
Yes this was a long weekend or more appropriately extended Eid holidays.
Although people returned to work, children are back to school yet the spirit of
holiday was still very much present.
I got back to my routines and I
am so grateful to start doing exercise after a long while. For many weeks I
turned into a couch potato. The food I was eating was high in spices and oil,
so finally I decided to wake up and burn bit of calories. I cannot say how much
successful I have been in losing weight but I am sure enough that I felt good
after some movement.
After you get into the motion and
the endorphins get kicking in, the weight becomes secondary and the feeling of
energy becomes the driving force. However, exercise in it self is not difficult
what is tough is to get yourself to the treadmill. That first step towards the
machine is the hardest and if somehow you get over that, then you have
conquered it all.
I shall be brief today but
promise to return with more.
Be healthy, have fun..
Sonya Syed. (Day 367)
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