Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
What to expect from an unexpected holiday? Despite crucial security
situation things have to be managed and obligations are to be fulfilled.
Even with all the positive attitude it becomes difficult to witness
the bruises and pains caused due to the unfortunate incidents within city as
well as in the entire country.
One could not but feel helpless in such times and you wish to have a
magic wand. Like it happens in fairy tales when somebody is down with life and
have nowhere to go then all of sudden a fairy appears and with one movement of
her magic wand she changes everything.
In real life although we do not have fairies but we have our
prayers, our gratitude and faith in the miracles. We might be helpless on the
physical level, nevertheless, on the spiritual level we are not that helpless. We
have the power of our mind, our thoughts and feelings. With all the darkness we
need to believe in light, the light that will not come from outside but the
light which we have inside us.
I once heard a lady on TV who survived the Holocaust; though I am
unable to recall her name but here is what she said in that interview, ‘when I was a little girl they killed my
family, imprisoned me and everyday when I woke up and washed my face I didn’t
know whether water is going to come out of the taps or they would release acid.
When they made me dance in
front of the Nazi soldiers, in my mind, I disconnected myself from the brutal
humiliation and thought as if I am a Ballerina who is performing at an exquisite
theatre with my fans all around.
They took my body but they couldn’t take my soul or my mind and with the power of my mind and faith I not only survived the holocaust but lived a blessed life filled with smiles and laughter of my children and grandchildren.
My survival and beautiful
life was My revenge.’
Good Evening!
Sonya Syed. (Day
375)
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