Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
What a day I had it was traveling
and more traveling but it is great that some really important work has been
taken care of. When I came home I thought I couldn’t move but here I am all set
to chat with you all.
First and foremost I thank you
all on the blog and on facebook for giving your warm responses on the birthday pictures.
There have been some challenging
moments when my gratitude was put to test, however; at the end of it all
finally it seems life is making some sense.
Throughout my life I have adhered
to praying and saying Thank You God routinely, probably because that was the
way I was brought up. Like many others I too followed the same method, yet I
always failed to comprehend the true essence of prayers or the power of
gratitude. We practice gratitude but we hardly ever mean it, when we get
something we desire we thank for it then few hours into it and we begin to
take everything for granted. Or in most cases we only opt for gratitude when we get huge
achievements.
Irrespective what is happening in
my life I am learning to see the little gifts. There is a exercise in the book
“The Magic” where if there is any negative situation in our life, then we have
to write ten things for which we can be grateful- something, anything. I
wondered what could be there in challenging situation to be grateful for but as
I started to work on it, one by one things began to emerge. And by the end of
the exercise I was actually feeling better.
The most important sign to see if
your gratitude is working is how you feel. The better or liter you feel the
powerfully gratitude is working for you. Of course in the midst of challenges
it is difficult to feel good, it is fine to experience the pain but strangely
certain space will be created around that pain- definitely decreasing its intensity.
After a long day, I need to get
some rest so Good Night!
Sonya. (Day 302)
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