Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Immense frustration, humongous anxiety, heightened ambiguity have been the highlights of my past few days. Some much of the precious time wasted in sheer stupidity. This is the outcome when there is chaos or when you decide to go into a dormant phase when action is required. But then when nerves calmed down and you pray for a miracle, a sudden shift in situation occurs not so much at the outside rather more on the inside. It is amazing that sometimes we spend so much of our time and energy on worrying about something so much and then ultimately that situation dissolves by itself without shattering either the heavens or the earth. And then we thank God for taking us out of our problems unharmed and so beautifully. An early day tomorrow with lots of tasks to accomplish and all what is required of me is an understanding of where to start first. With the prayers of ease, comfort & joy for all….. Sonya.