Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Life can sometimes leave you breathless, you run and do your best to hide but where can you hide from yourself . Irrespective of your greatest efforts- in those moments of silence the mind pours forth all that you have kept hiding for so long; your deepest fears, regrets, mistakes all comes into the spotlight. You wonder, why you made those ridiculous decisions because today you are the only one who has to live with the consequences of those decisions. Regret and guilt are the most killing elements. Sometimes what have appeared to be just for fun, contains the power to change the entire course of your life. In your childishness, you disturb someone who has nothing to do with you. There is no excuse for such behaviour if you did that voluntarily. However, in the midst of those guilt ridden memories you realize that if only I ask for forgiveness may be that could bring some ease. And if I am forgiven then this burden could be lifted once and for all. The best way t...