Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
I was in conversation with a friend and we were talking about desires and reality when she said that I should be prepared to compromise on few of my wishes because nobody in this world gets everything. Although I have profound respect for her guidance but a voice inside my heart said “No! I refuse to accept this theory because this isn’t true”. I agree that at times we wish for one thing and something completely different appears in our life. However, what we fail to realize is that we receive something that is actually wonderful when compared with what we wished for initially. Why we fail to realize that, is because we cling to our desires by standing in our own way thus we become our own enemy. In 2005 I saw for the first time in my life a colored laptop by Sony, I was in love with it immediately and decided to buy it. However, the colored series was unavailable in Karachi at that time, so I had to wait for the right time. In 2006 I went to Singapore and planned to buy the...