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My Two Cents

Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Cricket fever

Cricket cricket & cricket, T20 is all what echoes today from every corner. People are glued to TV cheering our team on every 4 or 6 and booing on the outs. Families have arranged for special get-togethers to enjoy the precious moments of thrill. Even the electricity department showers their mercy and abstains from load-shading during our matches. We Pakistanis have a love-hate relationship with our cricket team they loose and we take no time to express our anguish & dismay and if they come back victorious then nothing is much intense than the love and cheer they receive from their fellow countrymen. Although for me cricket is an alien territory because unfortunately I couldn’t understand it let alone enjoy it. The only match that I could remember ever seeing was the one that Pakistan won the world cup and Imran Khan was the captain. I didn’t even know who he was until he joined politics and started Shaukat Khanum Memorial Hospital for cancer patients in particular for the ...

Laburnums

The heat continues unabated. But within the discomfort and the sweltering conditions we see flowers blossoming to their fullest only in the hottest months of the year; nature in its finest expression and so justifiable. Bright, beautiful and soothing to the eyes. Nature’s inherent element of balance, the element of poetic justice, of good and evil intertwined.* A laburnum or Amaltas and Gulmohar in full bloom and in huge large bunches all around our beautiful city Karachi. I was born and brought up in Karachi but all these years I never noticed that the entire city is inundated with trees and flowers. Probably that’s what happens when we remain engrossed in our thoughts, we see but we don’t actually look; we hear but don’t really listen. In the foreground we are interacting with someone or busy doing something but in the background, in our minds, we are always thinking mostly the same, scrapped thoughts repeating over and over again. In case of any unpleasant incident then thinki...

Nothingness & Workout

Doing nothing being nothing is such a liberating feeling and also a significant recreational exercise. I was free by 9.30 pm and was at leisure but I decided to rather dwell in nothingness. Writing blog does occupy mind for good 1-2 hours however it does not happen all the time. There are days when I have nothing to share or if there is then due to day’s activities brain and body are more inclined towards rest. It is worthwhile to write when there is an urge to express otherwise simply writing for the sake writing would produce lifelessness. I have been now exercising for almost 9 years regularly Allhumdulillah except for few breaks i.e. when I get disappointed that all my efforts are not giving significant results. Whenever, there is weight gain now and then albeit normal eating patterns I would suggest to get tested for thyroid or hormonal imbalance or metabolical disorder. For many years the fact that I had hormonal imbalance remained undetected and when we found out we were ...