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My Two Cents

Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Phantasy

It is so fulfilling to know that your efforts are helpful to others and I am grateful for all your messages and comments. Although I feel that there is still a great deal to learn and to discover on my part. Do keep up with your input, it is very helpful. Weddings are all over the place, it seems everybody is getting married yet it is at times an alienating feeling. When everybody around is either married, about to get married, it seems strange that I am not part of the “Married Group”. So what is it to get married, does it imply that one has now become part of that approved section of the society or you get married because you actually believe in sharing your life with somebody? I wonder what the answer could be for most of the people; however, the institution of marriage has been there for ages and it has worked for many people. Probably there shouldn’t be any philosophical debate about marriage in the first place. It is something that everyone before you, after you ...

Fitness tips from a pro…

At last after a lot of deliberation we bought a treadmill for home use, because even with the best of intentions I simply couldn’t keep up with going to gym. Gym is definitely not my cup of tea, at least for now. I think we got a good deal on this exercise equipment, it is a nice machine with a red lights on its screen resembling to once famous disco lights, which were used for wedding decorations in my childhood. It was a difficult decision to choose the most suitable treadmill because they all looked the same; however, the main deciding factor was its monetary value and its usability. For more than a year I have sprain in my back and the entire vertebral column hurts, after gulping many painkillers the pain is very much there but yesterday after a long time I did some yoga. Although I do very basic and simple steps yet it has magically relieved me of my pain. It feels as if I do not even have a back, well figuratively speaking. I think I have ste...

Comforts & heartbreaks

Sundays come with their laid back attitude, late breakfast, slightly chilled morning with moments in the sunlight and a cup of cold coffee; to me this is pure luxury. It is such a tremendous blessing that I have the comfort of relaxing or the time to read a book or write blog without having to worry about anything. There are so many blessings and miracles manifesting right under our noses yet we are unable to fully recognize them or appreciate them. Although I hardly predict anything but when my intuition is right on the target and everybody who was discouraging me would ultimately accept my view, it feels as if I have conquered the world. So only yesterday I found that one of my insights was correct, of course there is also another side to this prediction but now I am positive that in due time I will be getting further affirmations in this regard as well. When it all falls into place, and I am sure that it will soon, then I would share it with you. Lights can surely...

Day 264

It is quite strange to use laptop after months, although it has been my friend for years but we are estranged for some time now. The screen look smaller and darker and I am simply not use to this device any more. We humans are peculiar species, first it takes a lot of time to get over an attachment and when we are attached to something else our first attachment is deleted from our memories. When we are all set to travel to a different location, we feel saddened to leave our home. As we reach the new destination, stay there for few days, get used to it and then leaving it, makes us melancholic. Such is the human state.  Lately I have been busy doing nothing and somehow my creative juices involved in writing blog aren’t active the way they usually are. Blog writing is a totally different ball game; there are times when I can write two or three posts in a row and then there are moments when writing single paragraph becomes a struggle. These days ...