Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Every where I turned I kept on hearing about new year resolutions, some focused on loosing weight some were dedicated to leave unhealthy habits and so on. Last year I also made some resolutions which I don’t remember anymore, but I know that I did have something like resolutions. So this year I made a resolution of not making any resolution, all I intend to do in 2012 is to stay intensely present in the Now, the present moment. I decided that this year I will not carry the baggage of any painful thought or emotion from my past, nor I will drive my self crazy by worrying unnecessarily about the future. I will stay in the present moment because past has no power over me anymore and our future is merely an extension of our present moment. And I have to say, that this idea of staying in the Now is also appreciated by God because on the first day of 2012 I was blessed with an anointed opportunity to make peace and reconcile with someone with whom I have been estranged...