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My Two Cents

Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Friday it is..

Damsel is out of her distress, accepted everything with dignity and is now looking for brighter side of matters. I have been quite busy with some work at home, some cooking requests from family and by the time I was with myself, I just wanted to sleep. Today in my sheer stupidity I accidentally closed my mobile when I was expecting a highly important call. There were hundreds of marketing and product promotion sms’s continuously coming in the evening and in order to concentrate on my work I decided to switch off the mobile and open it within few minutes. Probably an hour elapsed when I discovered that I completely forgot to switch on my phone but by then the possibility of receiving that call also vanished. Time management is crucial. Yet I am confident that I will receive that call- if not today, then tomorrow or day after tomorrow but I shall receive it and this is my faith..Insha Allah. The yoga instructor to whom I went to study yoga, told me that I am an Escaper . He s...

Damsel in distress

Sunday went merrily amidst the heat and then on Monday things became a bit shaky. By night I received two unexpected news and both were sort of rejections for me; something which my ego didn’t take too well. I felt gushing emotions, ache in my knees, back and cervical pains. I thought instead of falling in the trap of my mind and its chatter lets make into an opportunity to go deeper in consciousness and enlightenment. Lets watch my thoughts (how mind labels or judge the situation), feel all the emotions and observe my body reactions. As I became an alert witness to my thoughts and emotions, I felt aches in my knee joints. In the middle of all this, I realized that if I did not continue this duality I will succumb to my thoughts and will get arthritis. This is what exactly happens when you have stress in your life, your mind continually define, label and judge the situation and the people in it. Since we do not become the alert observer of our thoughts so we mistakenly take our minds...

Sunday brunch...

Hot, humid and dusty with hardly any traces of rain in this beloved city of mine. We all are desperately waiting for showers pouring down from heaven but alas there seems to be some delay. Delay is such an uncomfortable aspect of human life. To wait patiently for something that you have desired for so long and you are aware of its presence in close proximity, yet to accept and cherish the delay , is the true test of our patience. For some reason I find in myself a desire to write the blog in Urdu language. Converting an English post to Urdu from Google does not feel natural, besides the essence of the conversation might be lost in the verbatim translation. So I need to look for an appropriate system for Urdu blog. While writing this post I have heard a very distressing news piece that reconditioned cars, spare parts that are exported to Pakistan from Japan via Afghanistan and Dubai, contains high levels of radiation from the nuclear power plant. So please do not buy any cars or spare...