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My Two Cents

Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Problems & solutions

There is a time for everything and if the required action is not taken timely then catastrophe is the only logical outcome. We spend so much of our time worrying or running away from the main issue and it seems to be our inherent tendency to keep our problems at arm’s length. Nothing gets solved from going on going whether verbally or with repetitive movie-making in our minds of the issues which are problematic. There is a technique which has been proved successful over the time, with me personally, that one should sit down and outline each & every problem item and then deal with them respectively, the tougher ones first. Nonetheless before starting all this exercise a clear cut Intention of really solving the problem(s) and having a perfect outcome should be made or else in no time our unfocused efforts would go down the drain. Endeavours, aims & expectations of the past are being wrapped up now and new avenues of hope, bliss and faith shall be opening up. I have wasted ...

The Mystery of my Singlehood

Thanks so much Naved for all your comments, all we could do is pray and hope that everyone could understand the depth of this delicate and painful issue and somehow acknowledge the side effects which our actions today have on our future (with reference to the post “Burden of Love”). Not to be able to keep appointment and arrive late anywhere are the two things which really get on my nerves. If I happen to do either of them the guilt and the anger which I would have to endure is just too much. At such times I close myself in my room and do not come out until I get rid of all the negative emotions because I know now negativity is a virus if one has it in any form then its just a matter of time that others who are living in proximity gets it too. Enough of that now, I am today in a mood to chat about a long pending matter that is the mystery behind my still being single. After being asked a gazillion times this question “why are you still single?” that I have decided to come clean now a...

Burden of Love

Anger, fear, irritation, jealousy, abrupt judgement of any situation or person, or any other negative emotion when is the basis of our decisions and choices then it is perfect recipe of disaster for both present and the future. Not only these emotions compel us to make hastened choices but also make us short-sighted; we tend only to follow, hear and see whatever our thoughts (a voice in our head) tells us. In the heat of such imbecile moments we loose sight of the positives of past and the result such choice or decision which we would have to face in future. The only thing which resonates with us is that we want to be right no matter what the consequences are. The ego in us loves to give us a sense of separateness and alienation; it wants us to become alone. The only aim of our egos is to become inflated so it could feel good about itself regardless of the state of human in which it resides. Whatever I just wrote might or might not make sense to any of you; however, it does not perta...

Joy with an Attitude for Gratitude

As the heat perseveres the electricity department persists in spontaneous power cuts but the nation endures this predicament with all the patience which a normal mind cannot even comprehend. I was reading somewhere that Denmark is the world’s happiest and the richest country with Finland, Norway, Sweden next in row; however the survey pointed out that although money is a crucial factor because there is a sense of security and well being associated with it nevertheless the real happiness is not only connected with high income. Their day-to-day happiness is more likely to be associated with how well one's psychological and social needs are being met. As a tradition Danish people work till 4 pm and then they take out their bicycles go to the market for shopping. The measure of success for them is not financial success rather their level of happiness and they give their special care and highly regard their elders, something we have abandoned long ago.   Similarly and surprisingly Cost...

Day 102

I cannot but thank enough all the dear readers of our blog who are being there everyday regularly albeit of my irregularity. The absence is somewhat intentional because now I have come to realize that the only time I should write is when I truly wanted to talk and have some concrete ideas to share otherwise writing for the sake of writing and filling the space would never produce sensible effects. Familiarity with the place where one would sit in the solitude of night is a must however today I am not in my regular place that is my Mom’s room which I have occupied lately. She has to go bed early so I have been kicked out of the room with utmost respect. At the moment I am in my room sitting at an allegedly conventional place for using computers, that is, a proper table and chair yet I could candidly declare that I am in the most uncomfortable setup but never mind the discomforts because the energy to connect with all of you is far more positive and invigorating. It gets quite in l...