Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
I cannot but thank enough all the dear readers of our blog who are being there everyday regularly albeit of my irregularity. The absence is somewhat intentional because now I have come to realize that the only time I should write is when I truly wanted to talk and have some concrete ideas to share otherwise writing for the sake of writing and filling the space would never produce sensible effects.
Familiarity with the place where one would sit in the solitude of night is a must however today I am not in my regular place that is my Mom’s room which I have occupied lately. She has to go bed early so I have been kicked out of the room with utmost respect.
At the moment I am in my room sitting at an allegedly conventional place for using computers, that is, a proper table and chair yet I could candidly declare that I am in the most uncomfortable setup but never mind the discomforts because the energy to connect with all of you is far more positive and invigorating.
It gets quite in late night hours so I switched on my room TV with minimum sound as it might cover for aloofness in the room and some how give me the sense of humans being around.
Well the latest news is that my official work place is changing its form and we would be shifting soon in another building where it is located exactly have not been decided yet; so currently a home office is about take place and from there all work shall be conducted. Honestly speaking this dramatic change was not appreciated by me initially; nevertheless, as I went more into the details it appeared to be a very rational decision and now I am enjoying every bit of this transformation. For so long I wanted to set up a home library in a Victorian style room décor but the library would be manifested in this way was definitely never thought of.
Somebody very wisely said, “be very careful what you wish for because it might come true”.
The night beckons and slumber is coming in full throttle .
With lots of love to all of you wonderful people.
Sonya. (Day 102)
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