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My Two Cents

Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

The Mask

Yesterday I heard the news about Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes ending their marriage. I know I don’t usually do films gossip but I saw that famous Tom Cruise couch moment on the Oprah Show so I was unable to hold my thoughts. Tom is considered quite and a very private person but the way he jumped on the couch with genuine excitement when Oprah asked him about Katie Holmes was surprising to the world. I know he is a great actor but what we saw was real.  It is never good to see people breaking up like this especially when children are involved. What happens to all that “ love ”; he proposed to her on Eiffel Towel and then had a huge wedding at an Italian castle. Besides when common people read about this sort of fairytale romantic stories, in particular the fair sex, they make enormous expectations from their partners. In the end I think it is not pre-marital time that counts but the real challenge is when people get married. It is the time after tying the knot, tha...

Life

Finding order in the disorders of life is probably the trick of great living. Irrespective what occurs in the periphery or outer boundaries of our life, the centre our core should always be in peace & deep gratitude. Once the inner foundation is there the outer structure shall itself fall into place. Weather is finally getting lighter and windy and now we await monsoons. There is something magical about rain, something that couldn’t be expressed in words. Dark grey skies, soft breezes, fragrance emerging from earth as rain precipitates from the air and the aroma of pakoras from kitchen only add to the delights of this beautiful weather. Rain during the day has different impact while the one in the night casts another spell on us. I especially love the glistening reflection of orange and red hued streetlights and cars at night; sometimes passing by rickshaw play songs quite appropriate for the occasion and I feel that it is the glimpse of heaven. My mind is mechan...

Change

They say change is the only constant and if we allow things to flow in their natural flow then it all shall turn out to be in our best interest. We apply another strategy to face change and that is we try to hide away but then realize that we really cannot go anywhere or do anything about it; so what should be done then. Ideal response is that you face and be with all that is without any resistance or judgment and above all pray that it has magnificent and peaceful outcome for all involved.     Yet sometimes change or the possibility of any change frightens us to the core and that is the point where you need Something to lean on. You look in all the places to find somebody or something who would tell you that its all going to be fine. Sincere words of comfort support and wisdom shall always do the trick. Sometimes we find that shoulder to lean on and in case if we couldn’t then we find peace within ourselves. I guess that’s the natural remedy easily avai...